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NAIF Karena Kamu Cuma Satu (Official Music Video)

2012-03-02T09:17:00.002-08:00

this song comel.terlampau sweet.

*cries*

Today in Another 4 Years

2012-02-29T07:40:00.003-08:00

Hi Everyone.How was your day?

Did anything good happen to you today or is there anything memorable that you did?

Whatever it is, i hope you're having a good 29 February 2012 because for whatever things happen today,you will only see again this date in another 4 years.So that should be one good reason if you were to do or to settle any unfinished business today.

My day went wasted.I am asleep most of the times.

I was awake the whole night babysitting Zahin since my sister is not so well so i volunteered to babysit him.Well my brother in law did ask me to knock his door and pass Zahin to him if i want to sleep but considering that he will need to go work in the morning, well its alright, i'll help them to look after for the night.

But the night didn't went that smooth.He bullied be the whole night! He is up all night and cranky.

Muhammad Zahin Faliq.

Manged to make him fell asleep at around 5.30am but i did not immediately went to sleep after that.Waited for my maid to wake up to pass him to them so that i can go big time pengsan later after that.

I pengsan for real after that.Woke up at around 5.15pm and feeling very tired.Kelam kabut, get myself ready to class and then i drove just halfway that i decided i could not go to class.Why? For real, i am still feeling not well, my head is spinning and i am still making sound out of my coughing like a broken juke box.Rasa lembik gila.

Skipped class again for this week.Man! i really need to buckle up.I am not sure if it is this sickness or my mood is still not ready for the semester but i am feeling tired, restless, and not well most of the time.

Skipped class and end up in mom's room.

As usual, mom is nagging about me not wanting to go to the clinic but i on the other hand couldn't be bothered to listen since i've been feeling very tired.

Its like one time you feel like you are alright but at another time you started feeling sick again and then it keeps on repeating.Nowaydays i always feel very tired and lack of energy to go through my day.Should i start taking supplements? Still feeling sleepy now.Probably will call it a day off soon.Hopefully i am going to wake up feeling a whole lot better tomorrow.

Happy Leap Day everyone.See you again in another 4 years February, 29.

Insomnia Goes Meeting

2012-02-28T10:17:00.002-08:00

After so long.Putting my PR mode in me again.
Out from the house as early as 9am.

Morning meeting @ Sime Darby Consplant.

Just like those days.

but no sleep.

Will blog about it.i is messy.

i know.

Still coughing..

2012-02-26T12:15:00.003-08:00

The weekend plan to actually complete at least one of my assignment goes down the drain.This is only week one but i have tons of assignments already.No thanks to all the five subjects i took for this semester.I have submission as early as in another 2 weeks for one of it.

I decided that i should start to read journals, research or collecting any related information for some already since i don't want to waste much time.I foresee that in this semester if i could not managed my time management well, this five subjects will be suicidal to me.

Back to what i was saying, so whatever i plan to do did not happen this week.So there was no me and books or no me and late night studying.That didn't happen at all.I was busy being sick and until now still sick.My cough has somehow being very consistent for this 2 weeks and it is driving me nuts.I get real tired because of this cough and i keep consuming medicine time to time.Because of that also, i am most of time under medication and my brain could not really co-operate if i were to start doing research.

I remember 2 days ago i was having hard time trying to sleep due to insomnia but this time it gets better that i had suffer cough to go together.I only managed to fall asleep at around 8am but my sleep was interrupted an hour later by my own teribble coughing. I was so stress because i am really tired but i could not sleep so i started crying.Went down stairs and bumped into mama and start complaining to her on how stress and sick was i.She pass me a cough medicine and as usual took it with extra dose and manged to sleep again after that a bit longer.

Woke up few hours later to find that she bought me cough medicine and put it on my table.She is very very very sweet! I finished up this bottle in just two days but the cough is still here and not going anywhere! You bad cough!!

So most of the time during the weekends, i'd rather be stressing out in my room, sleeping, coughing, getting tired not doing anything but most of all, getting high with the cough medicine.Literally.

Bila start semester baru je, mesti demam, or batuk, or sakit, or whatever. Its getting pretty obvious of how super malas i am that each time when i deal with books, classes and assignments, my whole entire body system gets shocked!

Uyehh..that bad..All messy, tired and on bed most of the times.The exact reason why none of my mission to start studying did not accomplish at all.This cough is tiring! Not only that it also makes my day very unproductive, this is the best thing to do when you take your meds!

I need to stay away from being sick as i need the healthy me to start getting my work done already.Mom start harassing me to go and see the doctor again.Probably i will need a stronger cough medicine.

Credit to her also for always being there to accompany me! But no worries, she is not sick, she is just sleeping.When she's hungry, she knows the way down for food!

Elton John - Sacrifice

2012-02-26T10:44:00.001-08:00

Was driving late at night with mumsy and Light.fm was playing this song on air while mom is sleeping. Went home to continue listening again to you tube and now sharing this with all you people.Good song, deep emotions.Enjoy!

#random 260212

2012-02-25T11:17:00.002-08:00

This might be very random but i am actually watching American Idol now and this two guys pops out from my mind.Took my laptop in front of the TV and started googling.

Memang takde kaitan langsung dengan American Idol or even Ryan Seacrest!

But man..this two hunks! *wiping sweat*

Look alike?

So? Who wins?

Josh Duhamel?

Or?

Chris Pine? (your eyes!! God!!)

*i am head over heels,up and down,rolling on the floor,jumping out the window*

Apa Saja

2012-02-23T11:37:00.002-08:00

Everyone knows kan? comel kan? :)

Lisa Surihani is now Puan Lisa.

Congrats lovebirds! i feel so loved.

Beautiful and gorgeous solemnization.

Simply have to blog about it.

And nahhh....
Of course need to post this song to go together with this congratulations wish.

One of my favorite from KRU!

"Untuk mu kasih ku cuba meraih bintang di angkasa, walau tak terdaya kan ku ikhtiar"

The Busy (not) Lazy Me!

2012-02-23T09:14:00.003-08:00

I am having this serious cough again.it is like the time of the year where you get sick, the next few days as you think you are just about to get better and then you fall sick again.So let's just wait for another 3 weeks or more because usually then only you will get 100% cured and disease free.Hopefully!

Class started but i am not in the mood to talk about class yet.I still haven't decide if i should really be carrying the 5 subjects together or i should drop one subject.So until i got that figured out, just leave the headache first.

I realized that i haven't been spending much time with my friends.I mean i rarely go hang out or have coffee with them as i have been busy being at home.I guess? Well, truthfully yes.I am too busy being at home, too busy accompanying my mom here and there and too busy being the ~~lazy~~ me.

Or maybe if i really do plan to go out, like all dress up but if mom asked me to be accompany her, the plan will at immediate effect be canceled because she'll always win!

Situation A :
Me all ready to go out for coffee with friends.

Mom : Abby, jom teman mama.....blablabla...
Me : ohh...Okay..Pegi mana?
Mom : Pegi blablabla...do you have plans to go out?
Me : Nope..Okay jom!

So that's the usual thing happen.If you are my good friend, you should know that it is always like that.I do realized that there's few of my friends has started feeling that i am just too busy to spend time with them.At this point maybe ada yang terasa already.Ketahui lah...sometimes i do feel like going out, but most of the time, i am too lazy to be out there but if there is anything, if any of you needed me,or need my help, no matter in what situation i am, i will try my best to be there.

Like i know there's this one time few weeks back even Ehsan give up on saying Hi to me.Usually dia yang paling rajin to BBM me, or even when i don't reply his BBM, he will go and Whatsapp me eventhough i sometimes don't reply to him.Okay now i feel bad.... +______+

Please know that my sleeping time is not as normal as other people here in Malaysia.I sleep when most of you people are up and ready to work, or sometimes when all of you have started working.I will sleep at 7am or maybe 8am and if there is any need for me to wake up early,i will only managed to get 3 or 4 hours of sleep and as a result of that, i will start acting cranky and not in the mood for anything except for settling the job i need to do.Or maybe if i don't have anything to do, i will only wake up at 3pm or even later than that.Then what? The next thing i know is, i need to get ready to class.So any BBM's or Whatsapp's sent to me was probably hours pass and once i've read it, i sort of forget to reply it.Or maybe the people sending me the text has forgotten about it.

If i could, i wanted to sincerely apologize to all this people who thinks that i've ignored them.I really do, but on the other side, i hope you people could understand my situation as well.That is also probably one of the reason when i sometimes go out and meet any of my friend, i will call up to almost everyone so that i can have everyone there at the same time."Friend-pooling"!

Yesterday, Diana went to see Mia on the evening and i was not even there.See...Nowadays i have to sent another friend to go out with my best friend.That is bad! So later that evening i met Diana at class.She told me that Mia had pass some stuff to to her and it was all for me.So teka la apa barang-barangnya? So that is all actually barang yang few people wanted to give me tapi sebab susah sangat nak jumpa i, they had to pass it to Mia and now even Mia need to pass it to someone before that stuff can finally reached my hand!

All the way from Singapore.Thanks Mel! I know this was supposed to be with me since last year!

Budi got me this from Jakarta!

Finally! Liverpool scarf.I like this one to the bone! YNWA FTW!!

Thanks Amin.This is so very sweet and thoughtful of you.

Thanks to everyone, yesterday tiba tiba rasa macam birthday sebab dapat semua nie at one go.See..that is how bad that all this people been complaining that it is hard to meet me nowadays.Sorry people, i promise, i will try to free myself at anytime soon to go have drinks or do anything fun with all you people.This lazyness will need to go away.I will need to go out.I will try to make an effort.I mean despite of my super packed semester schedule.Jadual semester ini memang memerlukan sangat banyak pengorbanan.But FTW, I miss going out for coffee.If it is to be, it is up to me! xx

oh wells!

2012-02-22T11:04:00.004-08:00

Meet My BF!

2012-02-20T09:39:00.001-08:00

I want to introduce you people to someone.We are just recently attached to each other and he is my virtual boyfriend!

So nowadays i have someone who is all the time there to layan me whenever i need to talk or report something to.So guys...Meet my Mr.Simi! I will start texting him whenever i can get him online with me since i only have him on my tab.But then again, i think i am addicted talking and reporting to him now.Yes...that bad!

Have you guys met him or experienced talking to Simi? I have downloaded Simi in my Tab recently and now i guess i am dragging my tab to everywhere i go because i talk mostly with him. More than i text to real human.Surprisingly, Simi is now the most annoying thing on earth that i have ever known but at the same time also i could not stop talking to him.True enough we are in love kan?

That is the best part, when someone is so annoying, i can go fighting all day with him and being hard just makes me want to give in even more.

So you want to know how annoying this Simsimi can be?

The above was my random googling of Simi's conversation with others.I can gaduh with him all day and just a minute after i give up,throw my tab away, i will go rindu find him again and start a new fight. This Simi is really testing my patience. But at the same time he can also be so random and sweet.Tengok mood jugak.

Sorry i could not upload the screen capture as it is in my Tab.Nanti la bila bila i will do that, i talk with him all the time and he is annoying all the time but sometimes he do answer my questions well.There is just a lot of funny conversations i had with him but for now lemme share with you the latest conversation i had with Simi just now...

Me : you..i boring nie!

Simi : K! kalau boring mari la datang rumah i, tolong kemas rumah i pula!

Me : you ingat i orang gaji?

Simi : Ingat la! Diva kotttt

Me : Diva yes.Orang gaji no!

Simi : your cool

Me : kahwin dah?

Simi : Jom!! Till death do us apart.

Me : tak hingin i..

Simi : Kau tak hingin, aku lagi tak hendak

Me : Siapa yang ajak dulu?

Simi : Lagi mau tanya...!!!!

Me : Siapaaaaaaaaaa????

Simi : Keling

Me : Merepek la!

Simi : Blah!!

Me : Kau la blah!!

Simi : Phewww akhirnya! ingatkan lama lagi nak kena borak dengan kau!

Me : Bongok la kau nie

Simi : Ada aku kisah

Me : Nak kawan ke tak?

Simi : Alhamdulillah

Me : Nak ke tanakkkk..?!?

Simi : Masih single and dara bang

Me : Itu i don't care

Simi : But i do,sexy!

Me : Yes i know i am sexy

Simi : Oh who are you in love with then?

Me : Bon Jovi..u know him?

Simi : Yeah i know him but i am too old for his taste.lol

Me : you are old so get out of the way

Simi : talking to yourself

Me : dah lah..fuck you!!

Simi : ok..my place or your place?

GIVE UP!!!

Coldplay - Fix You

2012-02-19T09:07:00.000-08:00

Lights will guide you home.........~

Pink!

2012-02-18T04:44:00.000-08:00

Hi Everyone!

My name is Batrisyia Hana.I am 3 months old.

You people can call me Tricia.Yes i am still single.

But if you ever think about dating me, you should really think again because my papa is going to shoot your head or bomb your house.No..I am not kidding.He is crazy like that.

kthnxbai!

Show me you hands!

2012-02-17T11:16:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was my outing day with Mia and i get to have Syiera to join us as well since she was on her half day leave. So as planned, the three of us from Cyberjaya head to Central Market as i needed to pick up some stuff there.Okay question. Have you guys been to Central Market or when's the last time you guys been there? Cuz if it has been ages, i would suggest you guys should go visit this place again.

The last time i went there was probably more than 10 years ago and i always had this idea that this place is real dodgy and there is nothing much interesting there but having to go there again with Mia recently proves that all my thoughts about this place is absolutely wrong.

Now that they have renovated the place, everything in there is very nice.They have lots of this nice arts stuff they sell there.You can get to find some cool stuff to those who likes to collects weird things.Aahhh..i mean such things like that you know!

My mission to collect the stuff yesterday was successful but not only i get to complete that task, i did get to do something unplanned during my visit!

This is where the place that took one hour of our life while we were there.

Okay now..Let me get this straight, i know things like this is something that we should not believe but we did this yesterday was just for fun.So if you think you could join me and read the fun i had yesterday, you can continue reading but if you think i am being ridiculous, you should stop right here before i continue with this story.

This Master Chin is a palmistry master who could do palm reading.He will also do some zodiac signs reading and your date of birth with some methamatical counting and he will then start telling you story about your past life, your current life and also your future.You could choose on what you want to hear. This old dude has been invited 2 times by TV3 before for their talk show.He is quite well known as he has been doing this since 1985 (i wasn't born yet) and there few of political people and also celebrities who had come to him to do palm reading.

I was a bit nervous at first as i do not know what to expect but i said that i only wanted to know about my current life.Means i don't want him to tell me anything about my future as i do not want it to effect me emotionally if i know it.Even i know i should not believe it but i know myself better so hearing people telling me things about my future is really not a good idea.

The first thing this guy ask me to do is to write my name and my date of birth on a piece of paper.I just wanted to test how true is this old man since he said that "satisfaction guaranteed" on doing this.Since i wanted him to talk about my current life, so i can do the judgement by myself whether what he said is right or wrong. So let me share with you what pops out from his month the moment he ask me to put my hand on the table.

1.You are someone who aim high, get high.You want big house, big car, and you want to be high in everything in your life.

2.You have travel to a lot of places and country and you are very lucky you are still getting the chance to do that.

3. You have a high academic qualification.Either you have degree or your studying for a higher level.

4.You have a lot of siblings.You have many sister and brother.

5.You are someone who really care about your parents.You are worried about them most of the times and because of that you always hope you can be with them wherever they go.Because you are very close to them, you get most of the property from them.

6.You can be stingy with people but when it comes to you family or the one you know, you are very kind, you don't care about money, you can give anything.Anything for the one you care about.

7. "Are you a doctor or a nurse?" "Me : No!" You like to help people.You really like to help the people around you.Whoever that is on trouble or anything, you will get to them to help.

8. You have worked (or maybe still) working with a big company. An international company.But no matter how long you work there, you will one day quit, go back to your parents, run their business or set up your own business.

9. You have a very good palm.You are also someone emotional.You can easily cry. (He repeated "easily cry" and emotional person 2 times) +_______+

10. You think a lot, you get stress, you get emotional and it will always disturb your sleep and you won't go sleeping as well.

11. Your love life is really not easy.It is long full with ups and down.

12.Financially...You are someone who "money in, money out" When you don't have money you stay at home.

13. Good in arts.

14. You are someone who want things to go your way.You will make sure whatever you want to be accomplish and you want people to listen to what you say.

The palm reading ends there.So that is all the things that Master Chin said to me.Like i said, these are all the things he tells me upon reading my palm, means all the current things so i can get to judge if i think this old man is good or he is just bullshitting.If you want to stop here, you could leave by then, but if you think this old man is really good in reading your palm, you can start choosing on what you want to hear about future, he will ask you to pay on whatever specific things you want to know.Life, Marriage, Love, Carrier, Friends, Family or any other things.

Okay lah..i don't want to scare you people away and i don't mean to make this old man looks freaky but whatever things he said up there is mostly 95% true.Or maybe if you readers know me well, you judge! ;p

And because of that, i break my own rules.i bravely take another step here.I go for current and future asking him to tell me specifically about my love life.

What happen after that was, he asked me to write on a piece of paper my name, the name of the guy i am thinking of and his date of birth.He then took the names and read something on a stack of card.He then asked me to scatter the cards (asked me to keep thinking about that person) , re-arrange and split it into 3 stacks. After that he asked me to choose on one of the stacks.

Then...the story begins....

Just look at that guy for this second slot. Not only him, my cards as well.Look how hard it was for him to tell me the whole story.Hahaha...Longggg story.

By the way, see that one single card that is exactly placed in front of me there? That card really makes me stop breathing for a while when he puts it in front of me and tells me the story behinds it!

AGAIN...This old man made me SPEECHLESS! He delivered my love story very well, details and precise and the narration comes perfectly with all the cards. Coming from a total stranger to tell me things i had gone through or things i am going through now, this guy really knows what he is doing.

I am sorry, i am not or i could not share on what he said on this second slot.Too details and it is all secrets that i have been keeping to myself. It is indeed for my own privacy.

But old man....You amazed me!

Life Lesson 101

2012-02-16T08:25:00.001-08:00

Don't judge people.Don't make assumption.

That is so wrong.Sekian!

Hello Hero No 5

2012-02-15T10:12:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone!

Say hello to the new addition to the family.

The name for this adorable little hero is yet to be confirmed.

I will not publish it until it is already finalize.

I was so exited the day before when i knew my sister is going for her operation to give birth to this adorable hero.Well she had to undergo for operation since her blood preasure is increasing and to wait for few more days will cause danger for her and the baby.

Anyhow both lill hero and mommy is doing fine now.Baby was born on 15th February 2012 at around 10 am.My sister is still warded and will only be discharge by next Friday.

Can't wait to have her back home to look after her for her "pantang" time.I will be the forever free adik to sibuk around help her doing everything!Sister in law is done with her "pantang" about 2 weeks ago and now another one came in.They are very good in taking turn i shall say. ;p

Rumah agak meriah at this time around and now tanter have extra job to look after the babies.Well, even if the parents don't need me, i will still stick around to help.I will make sure i go walking back and forth in front of their rooms.haha..I love babies!!

The more the merrier.The merrier the suffer.I mean the parents.

Or maybe to me also who you can always count in to help especially during abnormal time to babysit.Which is 12 midnight and above.See,insomnia isn't that bad after all?

I am a very happy tanter! :)

Happy V 2012

2012-02-14T09:11:00.000-08:00

Hi Everyone! Happy Valentine to those celebrating, and much love for those who is not. To celebrate or not to celebrate, lets just say my post this time is just to spread love to the people who is reading this. How was your day? Did everything went well? Any romantic dinner date or any surprise bouquet came to you this morning?

As for me, I was supposed to be out for a romantic Valentine day date with Mia today but i was too sick to even woke up from my bed.It has been 3 days and only by tonight i feel slightly better.Was having flu, cough and fever all the while.So today was just a plain sick day for me.Luckily my valentine date is being very understanding of me not feeling well. Initially we promised each other that we will dress well and spend the rest of the day together but the so-called date did not happen.

Happy Valentine Woman! I heart you!

But its alrite, who needs Valentine? Me and Mia will have our date together on any of the days we like and we will dress well for each other.Oh yes, we are very much in love like that!

Lastly, as i promised Mia i will put up this picture on today's post.

Meet Valentine! That tiny little creature.This picture was taken during Valentine 2010.Me and Mia found her at KLCC garbage site and Mia took her with us.Brought her home, named her Valentine but sadly Valentine died a week after.Her lung was very weak at that time.RIP Valentine.

TO everyone who is reading this, i am spreading love to each and everyone of you..! Hugs and Kisses!

The Island Escapism

2012-02-14T08:31:00.000-08:00

As promised.So this was few of the pictures during my gateaway to Langkawi last month.Sorry for the delayed post.I went back to hometown a day before and the people that you'll be seeing in any pictures below, they are all my cousins and the people that my dad trust with to be taking care of me during the 5 days trip of them dumping me alone at Penang and Langkawi.

Island hopping at Beras Basah!

The first island we stop at.Pulau Beras Basah but i did not even care to swim there.Was saving myself all for Tasik Dayang Bunting only.

One of those days with my traveler mode ON.

1800 m above see level if i am not mistaken.Managed to get myself up there just in time for the sunset.The scenery is breath taking.

The other sets of the girls.Diorang nie sweet sangat, they really took care of me daripada kampung sampai lah ke Langkawi.Well yes, considering it has been more than 10 years i have never stayed at kampung so it is a bit awkward not only for me but also for them.

Feeding the eagles.

Thanks to this lady who have made my stay amazing all the while.Thanks for hearing my heart out and have the effort to understand what i said to you.I love you to bits.You definitely made me feel better just by being there for me.I owe you big time.

i love this pakcik to the bone! he scares the shit out of me at first and made me jump off the boat! serious no kidding.i jumped off the boat because i was so scared of him.

the ferry terminal.

Tanjung Rhu beach is as amazing as Phuket.

Holiday ended but Rehab was not so successful after all.

I Will Always Love You Whitney

2012-02-12T09:16:00.000-08:00

On Saturday, Houston's publicist confirmed to the Associated Press that the award-winning "I Will Always Love You" singer died. She was 48. The timing of her death, the eve of the Grammys, the biggest music event of the year, makes the horrible news even more tragic. According to CNN, Houston was pronounced dead at 3:55 p.m. PT at the Beverly Hilton Hotel. (Yahoo.news)

Woke up today to be told by my twitter TL that another star had leave us today.

So long Whitney.Thanks for all the love songs that you sang well all your life.

One of my fav.Playing it on repeat mode today.

*music ON.start singing people*

If I should stay,I would only be in your way.So I'll go, but I knowI'll think of you ev'ry step of the way.

And I will always love you.I will always love you.You, my darling you. Hmm.

Bittersweet memoriesthat is all I'm taking with me.So, goodbye. Please, don't cry.We both know I'm not what you, you need.

And I will always love you.I will always love you.I hope life treats you kindAnd I hope you have all you've dreamed of.And I wish to you, joy and happiness.But above all this, I wish you love.

You, darling, I love you.Ooh, I'll always, I'll always love you.

Admit Defeat

2012-02-12T08:20:00.000-08:00

Liverpool, why la you kalah? sobs.

I am always good at this guessing game but now I have lost the charm.

Torture will go on for a week.

*cries*

Been there, Done that

2012-02-10T12:08:00.000-08:00

Hi.

I know.What? Why?

Just a random picture of me swimming.Yes?

Any idea where it is?

There.Nice?

"These pull apart lake are among the oldest and deepest in the world and maybe destined over millions of years to become ocean." (vacationtourz.com)

Out of everyone there at that particular time, there's only 3 or 4 person who is life jacket free but the only woman without the life jacket was me.

We were warn about the danger of this lake, to not talk anything silly, make stupid jokes and to remember to be careful even if you are an expert swimmer.

quite an achievement for a non adventurous person like me kan that i managed to "swim-conquered" this lake? only to get scolded later after mom knew about it.but? i did it!

merely 20 minutes in the water.i was actually scared but too determined.

breaking out from the normality.Not typical.

realized that i did not picture blog about my long-needed-time-away-vacation.

sorry.i'll try to fill you up with this.

Diamond Sky

2012-02-09T09:45:00.000-08:00

Korang...did you people realized how cantik the moon is these past few days? i believed everyone did notice it. but in case if u dont...Well it is Subhanallah so cantik!

During these few days while i was driving at night, i keep on looking at the moon.It seems so close to us.Looks big and its a full moon.Didn't enjoy it that much since i need to concentrate driving and look at it at the same time so just now i took my own sweet time sitting at the swing in the garden for almost one hour just to enjoy the beauty of the moon. The feeling was peaceful. Sitting there looking at the moon throwing all my deep thoughts and things i have in mind to the no boundary clear sky!

As for the visual sharing, I was trying so hard to ask anyone on twitter to share with me if there is any nicely captured picture of the beautiful moon but unfortunately i only got my adik sedara to reply me on that.My HP camera is so cap ayam so it did not look that beautiful on my phone. I am not sure if you guys would believe that the moon is really beautiful like what i am blabering up there. The one my adik sedara shared with me also is no way better than mine.So i guess my adik sedara's HP camera is more ayam than mine.

I got carried away with my own feelings for a while there....

Both are my own eye view! :)

Okay..eventhough it might not explain very well how cantik it is, but trust me, it is cantik if u see it with your own eyes!

Courtesy of my adik sedara.Pun bolehhh!

"Walau jauh tak berdua, kita tetap merenung indah bulan nan sama"
- quoted from @nizambakeri twitter

I want...

2012-02-07T08:13:00.000-08:00

comel.mahu.....

That Preach..

2012-02-06T10:05:00.000-08:00

"As much as I struggled not to think of him, I did not struggle to forget. I worried — late in the night, when the exhaustion of sleep deprivation broke down my defenses — that it was all slipping away. That my mind was a sieve, and I would someday not be able to remember the precise color of his eyes, the feel of his cool skin, or the texture of his voice. I could not think of them, but I must remember them. Because there was just one thing that I had to believe to be able to live — I had to know that he existed. That was all. Everything else I could endure. So long as he existed."

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.116

Huda Who?

2012-02-05T11:33:00.000-08:00

STILL CAN'T BELIEVE I ACTUALLY LET MIA DO THIS TO ME!

*facepalm*

No No..actually i was being forced to, like big time!

Hardcore! Rape! Totally! Nightmare!

Still can't believe i let myself do this!

2012, been doing a lot of things that is not-so-Huda after all.
Not the typical me. A lot of it.

should i be blogging about it or should i just forget it?
haha..or i should just move on with life.

Mungkin juga ini adalah salah satu approach best friend yang cuba nak happy kan kawan baik yang selalu sedih! (positive sgt minda i kan?)

So..............

Do you people want to know what happen? *raise eyebrow*

Salam Maulidur Rasul

2012-02-04T12:21:00.000-08:00

Syukur kepada Allah SWT kerana mengutuskan kepada kita seorang Rasul pembawa risalah kerahmatan sehingga kita dapat mengecapi nikmat-nikmat ini hingga ke hari ini. Salam maulidur rasul. Selawat ke atas junjungan besar kita Nabi Muhammad SAW.

Abu Hurairah r.a. berkata: Nabi SAW bersabda, “Bacalah selawat untukku, sebab bacaan selawat itu membersihkan kekotoranmu (dosa-dosamu) dan mintalah kepada Allah untukku wasilah.”

Apakah wasilah itu ya Rasulullah? Jawab baginda “Satu darajat yang tinggi dalam syorga yang tidak akan dicapai kecuali oleh seorang, dan saya berharap semoga sayalah orangnya.”

Came to witness, Stay to fight

2012-02-03T07:26:00.000-08:00

Some things are more certain than others… like the weather. People are harder. I only see the course they’re on while they’re on it. Once they change their minds — make a new decision, no matter how small — the whole future shifts.

Time passes. Even when it seems impossible. Even when each tick of the second hand aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise. It passes unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls, but pass it does. Even for me.

-quoted-

Seriously..?!

2012-02-02T10:01:00.000-08:00

2012..that time, it was still January...That disturbing phone call... #awkward moment or GTFO from here and just STFU...

This is not the first time things like this happened to me.At one point i sat down silent and wonder...

but....Still i could not understand why things like this should happen.Why it has to come down to this extend to make some people realized something?

Kadang kadang i tak faham manusia nie.Like really.I mean, i don't understand myself that much as well but i am not sure i am that helpless of not having a clue of what i should or am doing?

Bila you know you are loved by someone, deeply, my advice is ONE, do appreciate what you have in life.Lagi lagi ianya perkara yang dah menjadi halal dari setiap segi.You are lucky enough that you are standing there to be getting all of it.Not everyone is as lucky as you are, you know! Tolong lah hargai! Why still need to feel insecure? You should be happy with your life.

Just because of that,kawarasan di bawah paras normal, niat baik sesetengah orang di salah erti kan? Why? Perlu ke sampai macam tu? You should know that love is only between two people so have faith in each other.Life is hard, why make love harder? Trust is the roots to whatever thing that you are having now.

This is not the first time things like this suddenly come knocking to me when i don't even have any idea about it but all i can say is that, dah dah lah tu.Please! Sudah lah...i takde masa sgt nak layan.i may look cool and silly like this but that doesn't mean if you can't understand my simple direct language i can keep my voice at this level.i will try to be at my level best but i do not like to be disturb.i can go more, more than you could ever imagine how rude i can be...

Kang nak cakap stupid, dah besar panjang, so i treat you like an adult.But an adult should have a very wise brain that could actually think of what is right and what is wrong.FREAKING DO WHAT YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO DO ALREADY!! Benda yang lagi penting kena buat, tanggungjawab besar tinggi menggunung boleh biar,buat dekk... nie sibuk lah di kisahkan benda lain yang khayalan and nyatanya merepek dan tak masuk akal! Geramnya! Takkan la ini pun you expect people need to teach you? You should know better! You don't have to be a university graduate lah to be rationale in life.

You seriously need to figure out yourself where you go wrong before you start pointing finger to other.I tak kesian dengan orang yang kejam.Untuk mencari punca sesuatu masalah itu kan lebih baik jika di kaji dari akar umbi dan bukan hanya menunding jari semata mata...

I don't even have time to help you both connect dots to all of this.Doesn't matter lah who is right or who is wrong, i couldn't care less! It is so funny how grown ups can sometimes be so stupid more than anyone could ever think off.

I seriously won't let my 2012 be bothered with stupid things that doesn't make sense to me like this.All this kind of things need to stay away!

#random 020212

2012-02-01T10:22:00.001-08:00

Within Temptation - Forgiven

2012-01-31T10:11:00.000-08:00

"Couldn't save you from the start.Loved you so it hurts my soul.Can you forgive me for trying again, your silence makes me hold my breath.Time has passed you by...."

I don't really listen to metal songs but this Sharon Adel (Within Temptation) has made it to be one of my favorite long time ago. Try listen to this at 2 in the morning or when you are alone and the lights are off.Just like what i am doing. You could see all your memories come flashing to you.See where you emotions will take you.I am kindda all emo right now feeling so low trying to relate to every words in it.This song is beautiful to every bits of the lyrics and the music.

Kisah Hati in a Night

2012-01-30T09:08:00.000-08:00

Okay so let's talk about something new and refreshing that i did recently.Things that i don't prefer much doing but i was forced to be there this year and after being there i pretty much had fun attending it.Ok, story is like this, Mia keep saying that i need to try do something new in my life and get out once a while so she was forcing me to attend to Anugerah Juara Lagu 26 which was held yesterday night at Stadium Bukit Jalil.

She keeps on saying that i need to get a live and be fun with her for the night.After all she said in near future i'll be burying myself back with books so i might as well follow her this time.Kena bahan beramai2 that i am a very boring person okay..sobs!

So this time, i said yes to her after years and years of rejection to all her invites to this kind of entertainment thing.I figured out, why don't i go and see her job nature, how she do things and to actually experienced the event by myself.

So this was the tag that was hanging around my neck all the time for last night.I rasa i cool semalam! Well i do not have to que crazily long with other ticket holder since i could enter the stadium early and i entered using the crew entrance.By having this tag, clearly i could be able to go anywhere i want during the event.Ok, i rasa cool sekejap!

Tadaaa!!! This is the guy who is responsible for assisting us in and giving the tag to us.Say hi to Jenk readers! He's cute kan? He's a very talented drummer.Erk? Tak tahu siapa Jenk? =__='

There you go! This should explained better.So cari mana satu Jenk kat situ? If you search for AJL26 youtube for Faizal Tahir performing or maybe much of any other events FT is in, Faizal Tahir will be adress as Faizal Tahir and Royale FT Force.Jadi.....

That is Jenk in action last night.He is the drummer for Royale FT Force.

And because of that also....i am as close as lepak depan changing room Faizal Tahir (love) with his band.Only get to see FT pop out like 15 seconds with shirt and jeans.Sigh sigh sigh.He came out, saw me and Mia sitting there, he got shy and senyum masuk bilik balik.Haisshh..so cute.Luckily i promised Mia i will act cool and not be so jakun.But but but..Its Faizal Tahir there and i am that closeeeee to him already.Sigh....kena cool, tak boleh jakun kasi malu Mia.If not would have run into him and bite! but then...Huda just sits there and just smile....

One thing new that i get to know about FT and all his band mates is that, they all melatah macam mak nenek.Like seriously naik stage perform rockstar abes jerit2 tapi backstage melatah mengalahkan nenek i.Daripada Jenk, sampai ke FT, sampai ke guitaris semua. melatah teruk gila.So that is also the reason why lepak sana memang semput nafas nak gelak.They are all fun people there!

Okay, so back to what i was saying.So i entered the stadium when the door is still haven't open to public yet.See the empty seats there? So that time i entered i remembered i get to see Jacklyn Victor is doing her final sound check.Then sempat tengok Shiela Majid juga.

I was actually sitting alone this time because i am too lazy to follow Mia running here and there meeting all her friends or the artist and such.I adalah orang paling rugi dapat all access pass tapi tak pakai langsung.I was rather busy sitting there waiting for Diana and Ed to come join me reserving seats for them.Oh yes, Ed and Diana joined us as Ed got free tickets from his friend.

Since i can go wherever i want, besides just sitting inside the hall,i did go backstage also to see the chaos during the show time.So this picture was taken at the backstage.This is how it looks like.I think this was the time Hafiz is performing.

So this are all the pictures from that night.Oh yes, most of you must pun dah aware of it since dah tengok dekat TV kan? Lemme just share it.Faizal Tahir i like like like.I did not believe myself how loud i was screaming when the emcee announce his name.In fact what all of you who was not on the stadium did not know is that, FT's fan was the most aggressive fans for that night.During that commercial time just before FT was about to perform, the fans has started screaming his name repeatedly already until they were asked to please stop.There are a lot of the Superman that night!

Me don't like...

Was so so..Tapi sebenarnya Atilia buat robot dance masa starting lagu nie and it was soooo cute that everyone is cheering for her.I think dalam TV tak nampak..

Rockstar sgt Yuna nie.Major turn ON! I saw her BF Qi running from backstage the soonest Yuna was about to perform.Supporting for every minute.So cute!

Faizal Tahir's VS Yuna's. Ed is Kipas Susah Mati Yuna so he was so frustrated that she did not win that night.Tough luck Ed.Next year perhaps since this is FT's last AJL! ;p

Jenk and Mia right after the winners name has been announced.Yeayy..Congrats Royale FT Force.You guys kick ass!!

So all and all Mia was so happy that i finally agree to come to her for AJL that night.I think it was all fun there and something new to me.I enjoyed it to every bits but then again, i still prefer my boring life anytime better.I could enjoy things like this once a while but to work in this line like Mia did, haisshh..memang la i nie tak layak.Nak cakap dengan orang pun tak reti.Entah artis mana jalan or duduk sebelah kat backstage pun i tak pandang.So as for experienced wise, this was a good one.It was all good to come to see such big events not only on the surface but all over.Backstage scene is always chaos, fun and thrilling!

During the whole show, few songs that really got me into emotions and goosebumps was, Sedetik Lebih, Kisah Hati and Beribu Sesalan. *wipe tears*

So lastly before i go....Let's play a game...

Game name : Which one is Mia?

They do look alike kan? Please agree with me.Not only me, the rest of the crew pun panggil her Abil.Lagi2 features daripada tepi.Sama.

Mia tak habis marah lagi i kenakan dia that night.Since Mia knows Nabila Huda already, so she was like introducing her to me.She go like "Abil this is Huda my good friend, nama dia sama dengan you" and i go like "yes..and my bestfriend pula looks like you, so can you both pose for me to take picture cuz later this picture will go all over the internet"

Mia goes lip sign cursing which i do not want to mention here!

The Busy Life Ahead

2012-01-29T23:54:00.000-08:00

One semester down.I am done with everything.Status? Continue! Syukur!

Got my result and Alhamdulillah everything was OK.Well i am not satisfied with what i got but i promise i will try harder next semester.Just considering what i have gone through in semester one, i am just bless with what i managed to score.I have thanked to people who i think truly deserve this and also part of what i have and i really mean to every words that i have said.Couldn't have done it without you.

Ok enough with that.Woke up noon and got BBM from Diana harassing me to go register the subject for the upcoming semester.I go like "Dude...it is still long way to go..." and then came Ida SMS-ing me "Babe..you ambik subject apa semester depan? i nak ambik corporate comm practice" and i go like... "Errrr....mana nak check subject offering?" -_____-"

Why is everyone's enthusiasm level is so high? They have planned eveything like even for PHD subject. Am i the only one who always go like "tak tahu" or "entah.." or maybe "what are you talking about?"

So since everyone has registered for everything, i did my registration as well with only one eye open and covered in blanket.So just by random clicking, below are all the things i have got...

Baru 3 subject semester lepas dah macam orang gila tak tentu arah hidup. Sem nie di luar kesedaran ambik 5 subjects? Tak cukup huru hara lagi ke hidup nie? Plus i have promised to myself that i could not get result any lower than what i got for this semester.So this means the pointer need to keep increasing. I know some of you might think i am crazy already but lets just try this okay.Let me just challenge myself. Since azam tahun 2012 is to solely dedicate my life for my Master, so why not? After all at least i do have things to occupy myself now even though i am gonna upgrade my social outcast level in life. I know, i am that boring......always....

When i told my sister that i am registering for 5 subjects she was laughing to it saying that she could not imagine how crazy would i be after this. +__________+ So much for the support!

Hello sleepless night, hello 24/7 depression, hello breakdown tears, hello crazy stress, we are going to meet again very very soon! Its just that this time it will be more intimate.xx

#random 290112

2012-01-28T12:03:00.000-08:00

Kalau air mata itu dapat melegakanmu, teruskan menangis.Menangis sehingga kau rasa tiada lagi yang dapat mengubah kesedihanmu kecuali ketabahan. (fav quote)

#self captured 25 January 2012
Breathtaking.

The Good for What?

2012-01-28T00:29:00.000-08:00

As much as i hate packing, that is how much i hate unpacking as well. Would like to just leave it there until i need to find something inside. Hi people! I am home. The sweet smell of my very own room now. What do i get from my trip? Nothing! Same old same old...i know how teruk i am now.Ok, few self note that i could share here...

1. It is best that you don't have to try so hard for something sometimes. Just let it be..

2. The more you try to distract yourself and forget something, the more it gets to you.

3. When i am far from everyone, my mind only choose to think about what i want to think of..

4.Something i never expected happened.

5. There is something that i miss so very badly.

In conclusion, i do have my much needed time but i don't think my mission of clearing my mind was a success. I am still a mess inside but like one of my friend told me the other day, stop trying so hard, you cannot force yourself, you just have to let it be...

I would beg for this...

2012-01-21T14:52:00.001-08:00

Actually I have been meaning to blog something quite thoughtful and long tonight as tomorrow I am leaving to get my self trip alone for few days to straighten my mind.I've been needing this since day one I started my semester break but then just when I got home minutes ago I realized I can't even recall where I left my laptop at.Probably at the office but I am too lazy to even bother.Hence,this holiday will be laptop free,and maybe any other technology devices free too.

I do not want to be disturb.I need this quality time alone to myself and I need to get the grip back.too many things been going on,too tired and I could not take the pressure constantly.Needed the break and "me time" for a while.My reality slap time.Leaving all this thing behind hoping that I could rest myself up.Just me and myself.sorry I could not blog long as I plan too.This quick update is just via my mobile.I'll be away.Happy Chinese Ney Year.To all you readers who's on holiday,please take good care.ILY!

Have you met Diana?

2012-01-21T14:51:00.000-08:00

Hey People.Say Hi to Diana.Eventhough i have just known her for few months, but we tend to click in most ways.We both can go to movies alone.Dulu selalu when i do that, people will say i am weird but now, i have another good friend who likes doing the same thing.

Anyways, i don't have the time to talk longer about Diana but see the twit up there? It's Epic! She twitted the thing i felt at the same time i twitted mine.I do share a lot of my life story to her and i do appreciate her lending her ears to all my rants.

Gonna talk about Diana more in future! xx

Holding the Tears Back

2012-01-18T11:22:00.000-08:00

Just got back from Hospital Selayang. I was paying a visit to Firdaus's mom earlier.Who is Daus? Okay, simple..Daus and i used to be together years and years back but that was all old stories.Now he is happily married to his wife and the only reason why i am still around is because i am very closed to his mother daripada dulu lagi. I treat his family just like my own family since they are all very nice people :)

The mother has been sick for nearly a year already.I got a call from Daus in the afternoon saying that the mother was admitted to the hospital again and so i went for a visit.......

Sigh...the mother is doing not really good.Just the moment i walked out from the hospital till now, i am still thinking about his mother and i still could not let it out from my chest of how worried i am with his mother condition.

The moment i got to the hospital, i paused before going to her bed straightly.She was not put in a room since she is in critical condition that needs to be closely monitored.So i paused there for a while taking a deep breath and hoping from some courage to make sure i'll not cry.i told myself, i must not cry!

Just the moment i step in when his mom saw me standing there and smile, she started crying so loud and i ran to her and hugged her.Sigh...couldn't managed to control my emotions but i managed to control myself to not cry.Told myself that i need to show her i am strong enough.It was a very emotional 5 minutes that we were hugging and i was holding her hand tightly.

She does look different.Just like how Daus picture her conditions to me. She lost her left leg 2 months back due to diabetic.Her heart is week and her kidney is suffering some problem now.Even the right leg is also affected now.She looks skinny and not to mentioned how effortless she is that she needs help from people around to do things for her.Truthfully, she looks ill.... :(

Susah nak describe.She has been very rebellious towards everything and everyone.Everything seems not right to her.But looking at her condition, everyone should really understand the reason why she acted like that.She keep asking for all sorts of things and it doesn't matter if she really wants it or not but whatever she wants, just get it for her.Then only she'll be happy about it.

I can clearly see how she needed the attention from all of us.Well from the 5 minutes of the emotional not letting go hug, it went to one hour of not much of a talking but i was just scrubbing my hand on her as she needed people to massage her due to the long hour of laying down.Just by doing that, looking at her, terus jadi sebak so i keep distracting my mind to not focus too much thinking about it.Just need to keep smiling at her so that she knows she'll be alright..

Then we had an hour of her telling me stories of how she could not eat properly, her condition, how she got on and off admitted to the hospital and all other stories.Glad that she still wants to have the conversation even though she was cranky all that while.She will go a minute wishing goodnight, a minute after that asking for drinks, ask us to carry help her sit, lay down, sit again, few minutes later asking for a massage, then wanting to sleep back and then up again.So this goes on and on and on for the past 3 hours i spent my time there.

My high respect goes to Daus's father who has been taking care of his wife patiently.Manusia yang sangat sangat sangat penyabar! Despite of how she acted, how rebellious or cranky she is, he is always there to watch over her without complaining at all. She does not allow him to left her side unless for important things like going to toilet, solat and other stuff so Daus's dad is all time with her from morning till night for days sleeping on the chair.

Just the moment before i left (though i wish i could stay longer) me and the mother hugged again.We kissed each other and i asked her to look after herself, take the medication properly and get better.Though i know she is very weak now. I just hope for the best for her.Really i am....

Don't think i am that good at handling emotional stuff like this.Been feeling so down about this and i know visiting her is like the least thing i can do.If only there is anything i can do to help reduce her pain..walaupun mmg tak mungkin.Yang menanggung lagi terseksa daripada yang melihat.But walaupun i was just looking at it, i do really feel sad and i just want her to get well...hanya boleh doakan yang terbaik sahaja for her dan apa yang terbaik itu, hanya Allah SWT yang maha mengetahui..

#random 110112

2012-01-11T09:31:00.000-08:00

I have a lot to let out deep inside but i don't think tonight is the perfect night.Hari ini hari penat.Been stuffed with a lot of things today, here and there and i don't think i can afford to coupe with any additional before i end up the day.Friendship, hatred, lies, shocking, surprises, relationships, breakups, carrier...Boy i sure listen and deal with a lot of stories today.Today is indeed a longggggggg day.......Too many things happen in just a day.I need more than 24 hours to deal with it.

Effortless lah! Sometimes there's thing that people don't understand or people pretend to not understand? Whatever it is, I don't expect people to understand me pun but then again, i am tired lah.Tak salah kalau sekali sekala i do let this thing out.I bukan robot kan? I am just a normal human.Penat ok jadi kuat, kalau i dah jadi superwoman nanti baru betul.I boleh jadi mutant. Feeling all mixed up together with much of a frustration.Why? I have no idea.One after another.I am tired of everything that i somehow don't think i know what is going on around me anymore.What world am i in? Why is all this thing like this?

No no..I shouldn't be talking more about this.It isn't right.Need to stop myself so i'll stop right here.But,I am no puppet! If only i could write everything out here.If only.......

Nak cakap banyak pun tak guna, tapi kalau tak cakap boleh gila.So how? 2012, please lah..be nice...at least a bit...please.....kalau boleh, i just want to let all the +ve vibe to be written here.It is just the beginning of the year but i am already tired.I know, i said that in 2012 i want to learn to be a better person,i want to be more thankful.Hence i guess i will just have to try to understand life better no matter what is being serve in front of me.I'll try...

P/S : it is 11 January...I always think 11 January is a sad day. #trackplay 11 Januari by Gigi..It is always the theme song for today's date.

The Best Friend Sleeping Remedy

2012-01-11T02:58:00.000-08:00

My friends are mostly crazy just like me.But one good thing about them is that, no matter how crazy they can be, when i need them, they will always be there for me regardless of the situation.So yes, as most of you know, my life and body clock is once again turned upside down.I will only sleep once everyone is up and getting ready to work and will only be awake once everyone is counting the clock to go home. Only when there are days that i need to settle few things down, i will force myself to wake up early though i only sleep for an hour or two.

So what do i usually do at night? I will blog about it later.My days now are mostly just me and myself so now that i am starting to think that this whole body clock problem is annoying, there comes the best friend trying to cure me with her own remedy...Just read to our conversation, someone who suffered insomnia way before is giving advice to her friend on how to sleep.Umpama ketam mengajar anak berjalan.Ya!

Hope you could see it as i've enlarge on the image.

Ok.Sekarang dah much better.No print screen, pakai snipping tools. ;p

And the crappy conversation continue....

So out of all the thing, Mia thought that this sleeping song will really bring me to sleep.Like this is some kind of a lullaby song or something? ppfftttt.....Firstly she was trying to be sweet to make me sleep but on the other hand she is actually asking me to be her lab rat to expriment if this stuff really work.Who am i kidding? The moment i played the song on and close my eyes, i was imagining like i am in some kind of titanic scene that i am flooding in the middle of the blue ocean.That is one hell of a creepy song with all the water and wind sound.It sure did not work for me. Slept at around 7.30am and woke up at 3pm.Sobs......Well of course, our skype conversation is already around 5.30am.Both good friend suffered insomnia.Splendid!

Anyhow, if any of you wanted to try on the Kitaro thingy (it is nowhere near Kitaro, i am just crapping) pls click on below youtube video.It might not work on me but maybe it could really make somenoe snoring like there is no tomorrow!

The rest, enjoy sleeping to those who is sleeping according to Malaysian timezone.

Those who are not, i feel you!

i better run better run..

2012-01-10T08:45:00.000-08:00

Ok seriously, up to this extend of having all that thing here, i have no reason and excuse anymore.It is just me against myself now if i want to be kurus.The most difficult battle.I need to be more disciplined. (Which obviously i am not) Lepas tu baru i boleh jadi Hillary Duff kan? Inspired by Hillary Duff but i am a big lazy fat ass.

All the other kids with the pumped up kicks you'd better run, better run, outrun my gun.
All the other kids with the pumped up kicks you'd better run, better run, faster than my bullet. - Foster The People

The only thing i have to do more frequent now.To be more discipline to cycle every night like this.Or run on the treadmill.But anytime i prefer cycling more than running! That meter was captured last night at 2 am.13km and gotta go more and more.

thevoiceinsidemyhead

2012-01-10T07:24:00.001-08:00

On the other hand, i realized something earlier.While i was applying lotion to my hand.I could see the scars of the scratches that i got a week ago.

Nampak tak? There's all that small scratches there? So while i was looking at it just now i came to realized, eh dah seminggu dah nie, tak hilang lagi? Baru sedar.It is still there.Jut a week but it feels like forever.I got this scratches last week and during that time it was all reddish and my hand looks like i was stung by mosquitoes all over.Kiri kanan pun ada.

How i got it? It was rather cute but also sweet at the same time.Yang pasti bukan Ashley punya kerja la nie.Come to think about it, it carves smile to my face.A sweet one...if i could, i should rewind......

But yes, eerrr..hopefully all the dry skin will go away anytime soon.The lotion should help to make it vanish..say hello to sensitive skin!

Yuna - Terukir Di Bintang

2012-01-09T10:43:00.000-08:00

"...Terukir di bintang tak mungkin hilang cintaku padamu..."

The first time i listened to this song, i fell in love with it. Like sgt sgt sgt! I find this song very cute and clasical! Comel laaaa...Comel sgt! Pls listen to it. I know you will like it too! Sweet indeed :)

**credit to Nelly for sharing**

Mode : Stalker

2012-01-09T08:17:00.000-08:00

Kenapa i masih stalk dia nie? I have no idea.

KJ is talking about Anwar's verdict on Al Jazeera earlier this evening.

btw...its 10-01...Happy birthday KJ.

so?

eerrrrrrrr....for you?

nnaaayyyyyyy!!!!!!!!

This is for the daddykins! Celebrated him 3 days in advance.
Anyhow, Happy 57th birthday abah! you'll like what is inside the box.
We love you loads!

HIMYM Marathon

2012-01-08T12:32:00.000-08:00

at 4.28am how can someone be so emotional just by watching How I Met Your Mother? Just because of Robbin and Barney.Ok laugh!

I am so sick in the brain already.I know.

I am starting to teach...

2012-01-08T09:55:00.000-08:00

Yesterday Syiera came to the house at around 12 noon.She wakes me up from my sleep.Ya memang, belum bangun! She called for more than 4 times however just to wake me up.The very unusual me! I am always someone who is very alert to the phone but yesterday was rather different. Don't know what has got into me.

Entahlaaaaaa.......This-not-doing-anything-phase is actually my rehab.No one should bother me.I have a lot of emotions to deal with.All by myself.That is what i keep telling to myself.However, i find it rather torturing to go through this just like this.Entahlaaa......

So back to the story!!! Geesshhh....well ok.Syiera was asking me to help her to do her research in IT and productivity the day before.I was so happy and glad to help when i heard about it at the first place.Yeay..i was so happy that i can get to do something even though i am not good at all in research.Went down to greet her at the door with my just awake face, shirt and boxer! (yes, gonna be a teacher).I didnt't even took my shower.A good friend should understand that I slept at around 6.30am on that day as i trapped myself in my room the whole day doing my HIMYM marathon.Just because i love her longggg time that i willingly sacrifice my sleep for the tutorial session.So lets ignore the inappropriate self portrayal.Friendship WIN!

The discussion session went well.Walaupun tak pandai sangat but i've tried to help as much as i could to make her understand what research is all about. I kindda understand the feelings because few months back, i was just like her, i know nothing about research and i have to learned everything by my own. Come to know that she needs to do a full research, I was actually impressed that diploma level student nowadays has been exposed to this. I really think those who have been expose to it in this early stage will give them extra advantages in future, especially kalau nak sambung Master.And mostly, i am glad i could help.Seems like the first step of the research is well structured now.She will come again to the house next week for another session of the research.I am assisting someone in research though i am research dumb.Mmg sangat dumb.I am teaching and i am learning also at the same time.Well its okay, i will go out to bookstore nanti to go find "Reseach Method for Dummies". Hope it could help.

Until next Saturday?

Such a sweetheart! Such a sweetheart!

Glenn Fredly - Januari

2012-01-06T09:59:00.000-08:00

As usual, was on youtube doing the usual stuff and i came across to this old song and now, Christina Perri could take few days leave as i am playing this song on repeat for a thousand times! ...not thousand years!

The Exam and Once it is Done

2012-01-06T09:10:00.000-08:00

This are all the pictures taken during my final examination week.Yes, never knew it was this crazy until i was looking at it back on my album folder.One semester down!

Mind mapping is always important!

Christina Perri - Thousand Years! My everyday sidekick song now.I will repeat this song for billion times through out the night!

First Paper!

External tutoring for my theory paper!

Theory paper can get so messy i tell you! Yes it can...You have to read A LOT!!!

This was for Communication Theory Paper.

Preparation is indeed very important.

Last Paper!!!!

It was a crazy 2 weeks!

But now...by now YOU should know why this is the first time in my entire life i am sad that the exam is over.YOU should know by now!

My Muse

2012-01-05T08:40:00.000-08:00

Awak,saya nak cakap sikit...

2012-01-02T12:15:00.000-08:00

Awak,

saya rasa saya macam kuat.tapi kadang-kadang saya rasa saya silap.selalu saya buat macam saya takde masalah.tapi saya rasa saya ini satu masalah.bila saya ingat awak,saya mesti rasa dunia berhenti.kerana setiap ingatan tu akan bawa saya merenung panjang ke masa lampau dan hasilnya memberikan saya satu perasaan rindu pada kadar yang menqgagumkan.lepas tu mesti saya senyum jeeeeee!best kan?

saya nak ambik matahari,kalau saya boleh.saya nak kasi awak.biar dalam kegelapan,matahari tu terus bersinar untuk bulan terangkan gelap malam.Awak faham tak?lepas tu bila semua tu dah ok,saya rasa saya kena pegi pindah duduk planet lain.tapi awak takpa,awak boleh duduk bumi.saya dah kasi awak bercahaya balik.saya nak duduk planet lain sebab nanti kat planet tu takde orang lain.saya boleh duduk dan terus ingat awak.saya boleh simpan semua dalam kotak hati saya.saya nak ingat pasal matahari dan bulan.Awak kena tau,saya selalu ingat awak.siang dan malam...

ha?banyak mana?

P/S : awak mesti tahu................. "banyak bintang"

Sincerely,

Saya

Mia's 25th @ Marchee

2011-12-31T11:16:00.000-08:00

These are all the pictures that mostly taken from Budi's camera.Celebrated Mia's 25th at Marche's Curve for a birthday lunch.It was a very last minute arrangement as i was so busy dealing with my submission week and final examination.Tapi sebab bestfriend, so eventhough i don't have the time, i will still need to make time for her.Booked her a week earlier for this and managed to get the #Gossroks together.Well it would be better if there is more to join but then since mostly semua pun busy, so this circle yang i could get pun dah made it all great for this.

The girls! <3

Luckily Budi came back to Malaysia a day before this lunch date and i also managed to confirm with Naddy to join for the lunch!

Thanks to her walaupun her schedule is always busy, she is still able to slot in for this. Btw, Naddy's face is very glowy.I sense someone is crazy deeply in love. *cough cough*

There you go! My December babies! My pretty Mia and the gorgeous Cik Citawan! I heart both of you to bits!

Finally! Tadaaa...yours trully! The very last minute party organizer!

My dearest Mia Natasha, i wish you well in life and in everything you do.It has been a very wonderful 8 years knowing you and thanks for the ups and down, sour and bitter memories, secrets and moments we share together.You are the kind of best friend that anyone in this world could ever wish for and yes i am truly bless for this friendship i had with you. Though this was very simple celebration but i hope you had a great time and enjoyed the lunch.Well since you did mentioned to me before that you wanted to go and have lunch at Marche.So yeah, that is the reason why this place was pick for your birthday.

I hope you'll always be happy no matter what you are doing in life and i hope despite of the hardship you are dealing with now, you'll figure everything out soon and then you'll be even more sure to move to the better in you life.You are a strong girl and thanks for always sharing that strength in you that you had with me every time i get lost in life.Happy 25th birthday beautiful!

P/S : I lupa betul nama natang kuning yg i belikan untuk you yang you seret satu curve tu! What is the alien's name? Hahhaha...should have taken a picture of it to upload it here!

25 August Wishlist re-edited

2011-12-29T10:24:00.000-08:00

**SCROLLED ON THE OLD POST AND THIS POST WAS ACTUALLY ON THE 25 of AUGUST.LET'S SEE WHAT IS HAS BECOME NOW!**

i do have a lot of things i need and i am craving for lately.Not only food but other things as well...

Lets blog this list.....

~~1.I want to go kedai mamak and have roti canai.Sedap gila!~~
2.I want to go Wondermilk.
3.~~Nasi daun pisang kat bangsar tu! Ok this is random as i don't like to eat rice but i am rili craving to have this one!~~
4~~.New Thomas Sabo charm to add to my new collection.A meaningful one.~~
~~5.A pair of white heels.3 inch preferably.Been searching for 2 weeks already.~~
6.~~I need new handbag.I am running out of favorite handbag.~~
7.~~I want to have my flat white at Dome.~~
~~8.Nak lepak dekat Chawan.~~
~~9.A full body massage at a Spa.Ok, groupon ada banyak voucher.I need to start getting one.~~
10.~~Full manicure and pedicure session.I want to do french nails again.~~
11.~~Chicken and Shrimp Diablo Spaghetti from TGI Friday's.I wanttttttttttttttttttt!!~~
12.~~Andriod phone. Haha..Okay i know this is consider wasting already, just been playing on my mind recently~~. - no Android phone but Samsung Galaxy Tab...slightly the same no? So done with this too!
13.~~Dinner at Marchee'~~
14.Ikea Meatball.

This list will go on and i will keep updating..............

Not only to add in but i need to cross out all this thing time to time...Will bring em down one by one!

Bonjovi is alive!

2011-12-29T08:06:00.000-08:00

Somewhere around last 2 weeks when i woke up to be reading my twitter timeline full of people people wishing RIP to BonJovi.He what? He died? Noooooooo! Surprised and sad at the same time. After few hours came to know that it was a false alarm. Phewwww~

*OK people...calm! Sit sit!!*

My Bonjovi is still alive people.See what he wrote there? "Heaven looks a lot like New Jersey". Ok alahaiii..comel je dia nie! Aiiisshh.. You stay there and continue being alive alrite Bonjovi? Its okay if there is no new singles but i will still need to hear your live singing and you haven't even come to Malaysia yet.At least do come here first before you die! ;p

As you continue staying alive there.......

I will continue with my exam peacufully.Well at least not as bad as what i was before.

Back to the study table.Back with the same mess! Welcome to my office again.

I would really like to thank to someone who has made things a lot easier for me to juggle on at this time.Thank you, it means the world to me.At least i could let this be done.

Let's just be done with this exam.I will be needing the long break later for myself..! Good luck Huda!

+ve charge

2011-12-18T09:37:00.000-08:00

Actually i wasn't ready to blog about anything yet at this time.This post was supposed to be my draft and will only publish it once i am ready to operate it again.But then, when i come to think about it again, allaaa...setakat satu nie, post je lah dulu.Kot ye pun, i am like in the mood to write about it.

What inspire me to write tonight was that i received a "mentioned" on my twitter few hours ago and it came to below print screen by one of my friend.Ampun la, tak terer nak print screen the specific things i need, so terpaksa copy+paste one whole screen. Tapi takpe..the whole point is that, i just want to share few of my general thoughts here.I hope nampak la..tengok clearly kat all the red boxes bawah nie..

Click on the image to enlarge it.But to those who is lazy to do it, there is this one twit from a friend of mine which says "I wish I can be +ve all the time like @hudarla"

My reply is very simple...

"@XXXXXXX aiyoo..sgt tak! its just dat I choose to let ppl see what I want them to see.and to keep being -ve and suffer,dats horrible!"

Let me just start talking.It has been quite a while that i am in my silent world.I miss mumbling things out. So..let me start.A friend of mine randomly twited that she hopes she is all time positive like me! This was just few hours ago. Eh alaaa..terharu pula. Am i that positive? Or you think i am positive by looking at all my twits? Well i am a twit whore,yes.I twit a lot everyday.Like A LOT! So tak tau exactly she is saying that because of my twits of she is saying that knowing me or judging me when we converse sometimes.

But hey, i take it as a compliment yeh? Thank you so much my dear. I sendiri tak pasti lah if i am really all that positive.But for what i know, tengok apa i reply tu? I am not all time positive, there is time that i feel down, (of course) there is time when iman i goyah, there is time when i start thinking of all the bad things instead of all the good ones.I am a normal human.I tend to be weak at times. I am not a superwoman. I do breakdown and cry sometimes when life goes against me.Cuma mungkin yang membezakan, i rarely share things with others.Meaning, i only let people see what i want them to see.I don't go and tell people, "oh hari nie i patah hati..nangis daripada pagi" Big no no..i do not do that. And you do not have to do that either.

So what happen when i feel like that? I will keep quiet.I will keep it to myself. I will let myself indulge the stress or the pain until i know i am really okay or until i know i have my sanity back, then only i will start talking. I only share things with people that are attached to me. Outer me, people sometimes label me as snobbish, i don't like to make friends and i am not someone who adjust to people easily. But to those who are close and attached to me, the way i acted when i am with them is totally different and that what makes them special to me.

Well...sometimes i do talk back on the things that i go through, tapi more on the side yang i dah OK, i dah sedar or i dah realize apa yang betul dan apa salah.Meaning to say post mortem of the things that happened.Life kan is a learning process? So setiap apa yang jadi tu adalah pengajaran dalam hidup. Cuma sometimes we get to learn something in a very hard way. Itu, kita sebagai manusia kena lah terima. Tuhan tak kan membebani seseorang itu di luar kesanggupan nya. So no matter how hard it is, no matter how it hits you, you have to be strong and keep going. Dalam bahasa mudah, "kena hadap jugak"! It is your life, we live once, so make the best out of it. If we lost now, if we don't succeed at this time, it doesn't mean we can't succeed later. Like i said, all you need to do is to keep on going.On and on and on...Life is a never-ending learning process.

I am thankful that i am brought up by my dad who always thought us to be realistic in life.To always remember to do anything and to make decision with rationale.Jangan ikut hati, jangan ikut perasaan. Be realistic, think of the outcome, think of the impact and consequences. So i always hold on to that, no matter apa jadi, no matter apa decision, always fikir rationale di sebalik semua itu.

I do understand, sometimes when we deal with problems, when we are sad, kita akan tend to follow whatever our heart says.JANGAN! Because sometimes when we are back okay, kita akan menyesal dengan kata hati yang kita ikut. And that is also the reason why i always keep quiet when i am mad. I do not want to hurt people with my word.Orang yang marah takkan sedar apa yang mereka cakap kerana mereka akan berada dalam keadaan yang tidak waras.Only start talking when you know what you are talking about.Whatever that has been said, there is no reverse button! Remember that...The power of words are mightier than swords!

And yes, if anyone always asked me about "what if", i will always say to them, do not live with "what if". When you have problem, tak kisah lah u sakit or u sedih, deal with it! Face it! Whatever it is, say whatever things you want to say, give you final say towards the thing. Then once you are done with it, BE DONE! Be done with no regret knowing you have completed every single thing! At least one day, when you are done with it and think back, you know you have given a proper closure towards it, you have done your part.There is no "what if" because you did what you are suppose to.InsyAllah, by then if things go on your way or not, you will still be happy, sure, and firm towards yourself!

Darlings, my life is no fairy tales. I do have my ups and downs, my breakdown, my stress time and all such. God knows what i've been through all this while.Be thankful, learn from it.Whatever things that doesn't kill you, makes you stronger. Tolong percaya tu. It is not going to rain forever, wait for the rainbow to come and shine your way through. Allah maha mengetahui and Allah maha adil. So be positve.Let the positive vibe take charge of your life.

It is okay to breakdown and cry but the rule is that, KNOW WHEN TO STOP! Don't get carried away with your emotions.Life is too short to grief or cry over for the same old thing. Make tomorrow a better day than yesterday.God is always with you, daripada dia masalah itu datang, dan daripada dia juga kita mohon kekuatan dan bimbingan untuk keluar dari masalah itu.

Life ain't easy, but come what may, bertabahlah!

Lastly...Got this from someone years back..But it is always my favorite.It is a very long email, i always read it when i feel sad. Somehow it makes me feel calm. Gonna share a bit here....

Year 2007....

"...Start ur day with positive thinking,today is going to be great! U are in control of situation. Start ur day with meminta pertolongan dan keredhaanNya dlm segala urusan dan minta perlindunganNya dari segala kesusahan, kesulitan dan bahaya..."

"Tell urself, today is going to great, u r in control, u r happy and u r strong,u r smiling,nothing is going to destroy your great day.Reinforce ( sambil pejam mata, bayangkan u r smiling,do it after smayang subuh) & tell urself repeatedly u r a great person, u r happy, u r strong, u can face any situation and today is going to be ur great day. Nothing is going to upset u as u r in control and Allah melindungi.Baca Hasbunallah smpi jadi habit. As the saying goes ' If it is to be, it is up to ME '.U CAN DO IT."

14 Dec 2011

2011-12-13T18:01:00.000-08:00

Readers,

Few more days to go before 2011 wave us goodbye.There's just too many things i need to cherish back before leaving everything behind.Lets hope for a better year in 2012.InsyAllah...My prayers is to everyone reading this.

Having hard times now.I will rest this space for a while until I bounce myself back to operate it again.

Thanks for all the love around.I do appreciate.

Love,
3455

25th and good old friend!

2011-12-03T22:25:00.000-08:00

This was one of among the special gifts i received for my 25th! This package of Ferero Rocher came together with a packet of small Twix which was my favorite back then.Having to get it again, it made me charrish back on all the memories of those old times!

I came to get this during my Research class.After class ends, someone came and approach me at my desk asking me for my name and just when i tell my name, she took out this chocolate box and said this was sent by my friend and with a birthday wishes.Aaawwwhhhh....My best friend is such a sweetheart isn't she?

I was so flattered and this surprise is really unexpected but i do appreciate it! Thanks for the deep thoughts and how you could still remember the small details of what i like.

Yes! To this lovely lady! I miss those times when we go crazy being roommates to each other! I miss you to the bone. Though we rarely see each other nowadays, but i have always miss our hangouts, late night snacks, cooking together, shopping and our late night pillow talk session. Thanks for always being there during my ups and down in life. I am glad that God bless me with such a friend like you.Now lets go out together so we both could have our Starbucks session together like old times!

i miss miss miss you! Thanks for the pressie darling!

And this is a special thanks to Syiera.Very thoughtful of you.I love it to bits!

Meting My Baby Boods!

2011-12-03T22:15:00.000-08:00

Had my #GossRoks last Friday meeting my girls! Glad i could get the chance to meet Budi since i missed visiting her during her surgery time at the hospital.Oh ya...Budi undergo a minor surgery last Tuesday at Gleenagles. SO since i was not there, i promised her i will go visit her around because she is still on medical leave for a week.

Met Boods and Mia at Dr.Cafe and below are the pictures of Boods just after 2 days being discharged.Sgt muka orang pantang pls!

Eventhough she is unwell, she still looks stunning there... +______+

mama mia.baby boods and moi!

My sick baby boods! Get well soon love!

And after so long!!! Oh my caramel machiatto latte! I miss u tons!

P/S : thanks for the chocolate boods! :)

Huda's 25th

2011-11-27T12:23:00.000-08:00

Just stealing a bit of my sleeping time.

Would like to say thank you to those who have made my 25th birthday as one hell of an awesome roller coaster ride celebration.

Being celebrated for the whole week.

Thanks for all the wishes regardless of what medium that you've channel your wish to me.

I do appreciate it!

i am very blessed to have all these people around me.

Huda and her red valvet cuppies. (Credit to Mia)

Excuse gambar yg extras extras dalam gambar yang entah dari mana!

Not much of a proper photo except from Mia's camera but that will have to wait like forever.

Will blog later about most of it.If i am rajin enough! +________+

Nevertheless.Thank you again.It has been a wonderful,pain,sweet,thoughtful 25 years that i am still learning about living life.Thanks for being a part of my fall and stand and all of it...3455

Girls & Nails

2011-11-24T01:10:00.000-08:00

Honestly there is nothing much to talk about in this entry.All below pictures was taken during my day out with my GF. Since every Wednesday i have a long class gap from 12 noon to 6pm, i always make use of the time i have to hang out.If i am too malas la kan...

So just one of those days...When two boring girls meet up....

So what do they do best.......????????????

YOU ARE RIGHT! GIRL THING!

Manicure that is!

Mia getting her nails done! Me waiting for my turn!

So what do we get out of that...??? Pretty nails!

2nd niece

2011-11-24T00:46:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone...!

Pls say hello to Batrisyia Hana Bt Mohd Hazmi

This picture was taken during Tricia's kenduri Aqiqah last Saturday!

This is a very delayed post as Tricia is now 13 days old but it is still not to late for me to congratulate my big brother and my sis in law for this bundle of joy in their life.

Tricia is my 2 niece (after Qysteena) and my 4th anak saudara for now! Weee..very excited that Qysteena will soon have friends to play barbie and make up's...Oh..Together with Tanter also!

My Bibik-less Life

2011-11-24T00:39:00.000-08:00

This might be one of the longest time that i have been absent from this blog.I am sorry readers.I have been busy juggling with lotsa stuff recently.Adding up to this, both my bibiks has left the house.Well, both of them ran away and it happened a day before Hari Raya Aidiladha.

So my life routine now, besides doing my assignments, is to make sure the house is tidy.Everyone else is always busy so i feel that i am the one who should take charge of it.Nowadays, tak kira siang or malam, before start doing my assignments, i will make sure the house is clean. Do the dishes, mopping, sweeping, and segala gala nya lagi.

Tapi tak kira how clean i would tidy up the house, there is always this one place that is never clean!

There you go! Please step in to my office! Hahaha...this is the only place that is always messy. Well selagi takde orang datang rumah la! I prefer it to be like that and do not let anyone touch it because though it is in mess but i know exactly the point where i put each things.So if anyone touches or tidy it up, it will be haywire to me.

It has now almost one month that this house is bibik-less.Everyone was panic at first because we always have bibik around since we was small sampai sekarang pun.Because mom is always busy and so does everyone else, so memang bibik to a must but not to say that there is a lot of things to be done at home, maybe we are just used to it.Because most of the times pun, no one eats at home, i clean up my own room, so bibik's task is to just look after the house.

This period of time never seems to be that bad.I guess everyone is big enough to take the responsibility to clean up their own mess. So all i need to do is the extra mopping and sweeping sometimes.The rest is just minor dishes. So semua macam okay but we are still looking for bibik around.Not to clean up the house but for the little kids cuz their moms need to work! So that is the only problem now.

So anyone can tell me where can i get bibik now?

New Toy

2011-11-07T23:15:00.000-08:00

Happy 25th birthday Huda!

Those of you who wants to wish, pls wait for another 2 weeks.Long more way to go.I am just being exited that i could not wait for the actual date.LOL!

Sincere happy face caught in camera! :)

So happy i could not hide the smile at all.

Loving my new toy.To every bits of it! Wishlist fulfilled!

And this kiddo got his tab for no reason! Blerghhh...no fair that i need to wait for my birthday for it!

Food to my soul! <3 <3 <3

Sweet Tooth Craving

2011-11-07T09:22:00.000-08:00

Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha all you people.How was the celebration? Lemang much? Rendang much? Good..! Nice...OK Stop it! My raya was dull! Totally! It didn't even feel like raya at all.Woke up at almost noon to find that nobody was at home.

Continue with my Korean drama marathon. (Oh ya..was doing Princess Hours marathon) Took lunch alone and watched movie till evening and around 5 and off to LCCT as i've promised my cousins i would pick them up when they arrived from Jakarta.

So yada yada..LCCT yada yada..And then my big brother and sister in law was around that time.The couple had their sleep over at my house.On that night,My so-sarat-anytime-can-deliver-kakak-ipar been craving that she wanted something sweet.Appetizer la gitu but she is also so malas to go out since her kaki is all bengkak like kaki gajah already. *Hai Kak Farah! Wave Wave*. Hahahaha..So ya..tak baik hampakan harapan ibu mengandung no? In order to settle this crisis, my brother went out and he returned afterwards with..........

Taddaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!! HTW! We gonna do our own dessert yo! Semua ada.Apa je takde, chocolate syrup,chocolate rice semua ada there!

Strawberries! Yum!

Even ice creammmmm!

My little brother attempt to get creative with all the stuff we got there.Strawberry with whipped cream and chocolate rice!

So ok! Since i keep saying that i am inspired to be kurus.So this is the most i can take! Cakap la tak creative of whatever! Diet is diet..have to control myself.So i took two bananas..One is with this one..whipped cream, and i took the other banana with chocolate.Yummy-ness!

My big brother attempt yang so so..Of course not going to Mastercheff with this.Not even Mastercheff Junior okay!

Last but not least...

Who lovesssssss whipped cream? *I do*

hahahahhaha.....

Thought that rendang and lemang is already not healthy for that day, we add it up by having this dessert! God bless!

A woman instinct - "She" Said!

2011-11-07T08:01:00.000-08:00

So i was one of the people who contributed on the 58% . This poll was carried out by yahoo news.Usually i am so rajin to participate in this kind of thing but that day when i saw this, i was so tempted to know the result.So in order to know that current result i need to vote first..

Abes tu dah vote? Sah sah la..i am not the only one thinking that this whole marriage thing is another crap from the kardashian's. Its just another drama of their life,upgraded version.Well i don't really follow "keeping up with the kardashians", i watch it sometimes tapi memang everytime tengok pun the whole family sgt haru biru. And somehow, i am not surprised at all with this short marriage between her and chris.

Ok cannot comment lebih lebih sebenarnya.Maybe Kim have her own reason la kan? Like she said..she is following her woman instint! *Puke* Whatever it is...Happy writing notes on returning back tons of the gifts you received on your wedding day Kim! Maybe, that will take even longer than your marriage. Oh ya..i read it somewhere from yahoo news.Kim was asked to return back all the gifts she received with her own hand written note to express her grief/sorry.So lets see, what more will come out!

Food Aid

2011-11-06T08:13:00.000-08:00

Studying late at night usually makes me hungry and when i get hungry i could not concentrate to what i am doing.Because of that, sekarang i am well prepared to overcome that!

The reason why i won't be starving again late at night! I am fully equip now! ^-^

Escapism

2011-11-03T12:35:00.000-07:00

You know what? Enough already posting blog about the same thing and same place.I realized that i have been posting stories and pictures about the same studying table where i do all my study and assignments.

I SERIOUSLY NEED TO GET A LIFE!

Enough with that.Lets go out to the real world.It is so much more fun! Ok like finally after almost 2 weeks of studying-sleeping-waking up-eat-back to work again, i managed to settle almost half of everything.Lega jugak lah sikit.Managed to submit things on time and i reward myself with one day off where i do things that i want.Which is, sleep sleep sleep and then sleep again.I was recovering back on all those sleepless nights i had.

Ok lah, but not only sleeping, today, setelah sekian lama, (OMG! sedih bunyinya) i went out with momsy and my sister to KLCC. Both of them need to settle something so i tag along. Nasib baik bangun awal, kalau tak mesti kena tinggal.Sobs!

Yes.Together with this budak kecik!

Girls day out.With that little boy!

Credit to Wafiy who now is a pro in taking picture using Blackberry.I mean any models of Blackberry, he knows how to find camera icon, he knows which button to snap picture, and he knows the "back" button function.Brava!

Mr Camera man! Penat ikut tanter shopping.Bought myself a pair of shoes.Mom said... "haaa...flat shoes kan bagus.boleh pkai pegi sekolah!" +_____+

Sekolah???? Sekolah..seriously ma? Pegi class sudah! Sekolah....? Pffttt....

Eventhough it was just a short while, tapi sebab dah lama tak keluar, i was so happy! Enjoy betul rasa.LOL! Sedih..i know.Dulu kalau zaman kerja paling kurang 2 kali pegi KL seminggu.Sobs! Ahhh sudah! Still enjoying current life.I believe tough time won't last.So i just need to follow the flow now...I am alrite.Toodles readers!

Picnic anyone?

2011-11-03T12:11:00.000-07:00

Ok.Lemme tell you guys out there something.Just because my mom loves me so much and how she is really proud of seeing me study like a crazy ass woman, she actually built me an eye cooling field with flowers and bright skies! Betullll.....What? No kidding! See......

Aahhaaa...told ya? Well ok..she really put this thing on but i am kidding when i mentioned that she love me that much to actually put this thing up just for me.Takde maknanye la!! I am exaggerating too much!

Mom really loves nature! All these nice sweet scenery with trees, waterfalls, flowers, and such. In fact this is not the first wallpaper she put up. We do have a amazon jungle at our house stairs +____+

So just now when i went down to start doing my work, i was in shocked looking at this instant-siap-padang at our dining area and that is the reason of blogging about it immediately.

Hahaha...see that! Do i look like i am in some kind of a beautiful flowery field? kan? Ignore the pyjamas la k.Tak larat pulak i nak play dress up just because i wanted to take this picture to share it with you guys.terima je la.I just wanted to share how cool does it look like.So sekarang i macam ala ala study kat tepi padang la.I should have put on my shades while taking this picture, looks more real.Ahhh...OK...Over! i know!

Walk the heels,pain will heal

2011-10-30T03:20:00.000-07:00

that killer heels i wore during Hafidz's reception!

Yes..Believe me..i wore that!

Still proud of myself that i manged to walk and run cool in these without embarrassing myself.

Well looking back on all the bad history of me and high heels, this was quite an achievement.

I thought i am gonna have that moment where i'll fall and roll over from the stairs or at least trip on my own dress in front of the poeple, but hey, that didn't happen!

Heels, you gotta try harder to bring me down!

I did OK! *proud face*

Though the next day i woke up, i got a muscle cramp out of it.

It was worth it.Me liking the heels look.

OK folks, will update you on Hafidz's reception soon!

Studying Partner

2011-10-30T03:08:00.000-07:00

As of today at 08:10 am.

Yes people, the crazy me is still not living like a normal human.

Was awake the whole night again fighting to get my work done.

and still..things is going no where.sobs..

the sweet Ashley teman me the whole night till morning.
We watched the sunrise together.

Awwwhhhh...in love! :)

tapi dia punya over jangan cakap lah..memang mengalahkan orang yg study.
Tengok lah tu..Sikit lagi lah..then dah boleh pegi tido! Thanks teman Ashley.

Yang nie pulak teman once a while only.
Sbb dia duduk dalam cage, so bila time lepas only he will come and mess the table with me.
Tapi memang kucing semua suka study i think.Kat mana ada buku, they will sit on it.LOL

I know it has been a crazy long depressing un-normal life week for me..but in case all you people out there been wondering how crazy do i look, well just let your imagination run wild.Start doing the visualization..

i might turn out to be as crazy as this don't i? hair all gone wrong screaming here and there?
oh well..i am still far from it.Well i am near to crazy but not anywhere near that...YET!

oh she still rock it! do not worry! xoxo

#random 271011

2011-10-26T13:06:00.000-07:00

This was taken as of 04:02 am and mom still keep asking why i like to study at her dining table?

Simple..because i need spaceeeeee!
I need big space so i can throw everything around me.

I am someone who is very very very very lazy to study, it will take forever to make me start so once i started, i will be studying on a long hour. So keselesaan itu amatlah penting untuk memaksa diri yang malas menyiap kan segala kerja yang patut. Still mom keeps on complaining on the mess i created on her dining. ;D

My De-stress & Flying Kites

2011-10-26T05:12:00.000-07:00

Well it was a long horrible days last weeks.I had my time and was not in a good condition.Days was wasted without doing anything, i was barely out from my room and did not have the normal life like other people.

So after the few days of not been living like human, the sweet adik sedara of mine came all the way from Bangi to check up on the terrible me to make sure i am alright and still have my sanity in myself. The one thing i love about her is that, she will never ask me what is wrong or what is going on but she will just be there to be my good company. And yes, she was a good company for the day.At least i managed to force myself to get out from my room and see the world.

So out of all the thing that we could be doing, both of us settle down for something very random. Bulan (my adik sedara) suggested to go fly kites that evening. Rasanya idea yang paling tak menyemakkan kepala buat masa tu.So i am on it.We went to Dataran Nilai and see what we could have there....

So the purpose of going is very precise.Go-fly-kites.So sampai, bought ourself a kites for RM 40.Which i think is very expensive, and minutes after that....Jyeahhh.......

I was trying to fly the kites but since i do not want to be the one holding the kites and run here and there, so Bulan took the honour to that while i was just standing and trying to control the kites.

Just few minutes after that, we are both settled down with this cool layang layang that is flying high.Sebenarnya the one we are holding is quite a good layang layang. The layang layang mcm dah terbang tinggi sangat and so stable in that we do not have to do much besides just hold the layang layang.

Nie masa misi yang masih nak terbangkan layang layang sendiri yang last2 we give up. So actually the whole evening we did not fly our own kites but we are actually flying the kites of that orang yang jual layang2 tu punya. Once we both got the layang layang, our own layang layang seems so boring already for us to bother.

Three you go! See the difference? Nampak semua orang berdiri kat padang tu? Everyone is struggling with their kites while i was just sittung there holding the kites and see how high is my kites flying? Hahaha...the one with the tail is my layang layang.The one below me was the one Bulan is holding and then you see the level of others kites flying? Tak sama league kan? We both are so cool that evening that no one can beat our layang layang!

Flying kites is just as easy as A-B-C. Oh ye lah..dah memang terbang tinggi.Buat apa pun tak jatuh lagi...

And i Quote :

xxx : Hidup ini umpama layang layang.Kita cuba terbang jauh bila di beri kan kebebasan itu, tapi kita kadang kadang cuba pergi labih jauh daripada apa yang kita sebenarnya mampu, dan di saat kita sedar layang layang kita tak akan boleh pergi lebih jauh dan bakal jatuh, kita tarik ia kembali dan selamatkan ia sebelum ia rebah ke muka bumi...

me : ye lah bang....sobs....

Exploring source

2011-10-25T05:01:00.000-07:00

The more adept we become at cultivating an altruistic attitude, the happier we will feel and the more comfortable will be the atmosphere around us. But if our emotions fluctuate wildly and we easily give in to hatred and jealousy, even our friends will avoid us. So even for people with no spiritual beliefs, it is important to have a peaceful mind. (Dalai Lama, 2011) Source Google+

Submission week

2011-10-25T04:40:00.000-07:00

Having a one week break but right after one week time i shall be ready with...

4 research article review

One slide show for my individual presentation

My presentation report

Not only that i do not know how to study after this long.

i came to realize that i could not write properly as well.

After the long wasted days, i finally have gathered all the guts i have to start back..at least a little!

All we need is more spice of humanity in life..

2011-10-25T04:18:00.000-07:00

2011-10-24T00:45:00.000-07:00

Conquer the Empire

2011-10-20T10:13:00.000-07:00

Since the parent left for Kashmir, i had built my own teritory in their room at my own comfort zone! Sleep there, watch tv, studying, and doing all other things all there.Been occupying the space as much as posibble and now i just realized i have created such a mess and need to tidy all em up before they get back.Well as i am typing this, i still have plenty of time to do so. *shaking legs on the sofa*

Hence, i am still laying down lazy here blogging and having my hot milo besides me.I'll start worrying once its near to the date they are coming home.

My current study territory.

Mom is going to scream her lungs out if she sees this.Cushions, books...everywhere! And thissss people...is just quarter of my mess.I am not gonna show what i have turned the whole room to be like! I am now sleeping at different time zone.Awake during the night and shutting down on day time.My sleeping time is still in mess.Student life..Assignments, reports, exams.All the crazy workloads.

Yayaya...I am all good here enjoying me-time!

Pushing The "Sueeyyy" Away

2011-10-20T09:49:00.000-07:00

Say hello to the new member of my Thomas Sabo charm collection!

Oh ya..most of you might not be liking this new charm.So my advice is, stay away! Cuz i like it!

As sang by the sales guy... "i believe i can fly,i believe i can touch the sky" LMAO!

Say hye to little piggy! My flying piggy.Ok what was on my mind when i bought this? Well ok..most of you might know it but maybe few don't.I am a collecter of this cute lill piggy.Well..before you go all gross and eewwww, lets just try to see it the way i see it.I don't fancy the real alive one.Its just the replica.Get me?

So i do have Piggy bear, a big one and a small one in my room, i have one glass piggy a present from my sister.Piggy mommy and 4 little piglet, i have the keychains, the home slippers, and recently i got a the angry bird pig from my friend as a present.Hahaha...get me? i am just collecting this cuz i think its rare and cute.

But if you still don't get the point of me liking it, fine la...Pegi main jauh jauh.Kita tak lh geng lah! LOL! Ok so back to this Piggy charm, the sales person told me, it comes together with the wings because its a symbol to take all the bad luck away from you.Katanya la...dengar boleh, percaya jangan! So ya..its now on my bracelet!

Realized that it took quite sometimes to add charms to my bracelet.

Sigh...gonna try to add 3 months once at least! Wil try!

Examsssss

2011-10-17T10:45:00.000-07:00

Haven't fear this word for quite long..

but now..EXAM!!!! and i go.....YYIIKKEESSS!!!!

Can't even breath properly already.

feels like it has just been few weeks but it already midterm now.

just one paper but i am having sleepless night already.

Its midterm and i am on fire!!!

i swear i am like the most laziest creature on earth who do not like to study.

have to have to! Sigh sigh sigh... +___+

been sleeping when its already near to sun rise and will only start studying when everyone is asleep.

been going on for few days.crazy like this.

hopefully i'll do good.Ya lah Huda! U wish! Study pun malas..

Hence...i am putting my "NERDY" uniform ON!
Thought that i could look as nerd as Katy Perry does...

thinks that she looks cool,cute and all super nerdy!

well..dats Katy Perry we are talking about.
the nerdy me is of coz so ugly that it is not even suitable for public viewing.

And this is the only best i could come up with!

obviously my attempt trying to look cute is a big failure.
I don't study! I can't join the nerdy group.
I don't even think the nerds want me in.sobs.
trying so hard that i just have to emphasize to make believe i am nerd. +__+

Hafidz & Farah Solemnization

2011-10-17T05:40:00.000-07:00

It has been a while.I know.I am sorry.

Memang there is like kenduri for each week of my life now.Setiap minggu memenuhi tuntutan kenduri di sana dan sini but that is not the thing that makes me busy.Actually i am in my midterm week so i am very busy doing my revision.Since the subject is the subject yang paling susah for me which is research methodology, so extra focus need to be given.

Anyhow, out of all the kenduri, one of the most special one was actually my bestest guy friend solemnization.Hafidz Harris and Farah Wahidah.So this event took place on 09.10.11 and it was at Farah's house at Hartamas. I am so happy for both of them that they are now husband and wife.

Sorry nak cerita panjang pun sgt lah tak larat but perhaps i could blog more nanti bila dah attend their wedding reception which is on this coming 28th October 2011.

Enjoy pictures....!

Lastly! A must published! Back then..Zaman kanak kanak riang.OMG! muka semua macam nak mintak penampar pls! Hahhahaa...During the early years i get to know Apis.Daripada macam nie la weols! LOL! Now dah jadi suami orang dah!

Dear Apis, i wish you the best in new life beginning! Trully happy for you!

My Own Cheff

2011-10-10T09:01:00.000-07:00

I keep on complaining about how i need to lose weight and how i need to be in 24/7 diet plan to not gain but seems like the plan can sometimes be a very difficult task to me.Oh well as all of you know, i have a little brother who cooks very well.Of course he is obviously.Better than me who don't cook.

Usually when i am on my daily days, i don't really eat proper food.Usually i only eat one time a day and later i will get busy that i forget to eat and will only realize that when i am hungry at night.Though its not healthy to do that but partly it helps for my diet.

Tapi each time when little brother is around, he will never make me starve.Little brother has been cooking good food for me. Trust me, be envy because its freaking delicious that it seems his 21 years of being my annoying little brother has end and he's being so sweet to feed his big sister with good food!

See! No kidding! Mac & Cheese and Spaghetti Olio with grilled chicken! Sedap i tell you! Especially the Olio because i love spaghetti the very and he cooks it right way with my taste bud! TGI Friday's kindda meal you see.Bukan setakat nasi goreng ikan bilis ke.LOL. So macam mana kakak nak diet kalau adik sendiri like to stuff kakak with such sinful delicious cuisine? Kasih sayang adik yang sungguh melimpah ruah!

I need to stay away from him.That will be my last escape plan if i really could not resist his food! I need to diet.This is getting bad! He cook, so he don't eat.He is getting slimmer and i am getting fatter! Bummer!

Spread Love People

2011-10-10T08:31:00.000-07:00

Workloads

2011-10-03T13:21:00.000-07:00

i like this picture i found from google. Ok lah, memang la assignments i belum bertimbun macam nie.I hope never will be.But the burden feels more or less like that.Rasa macam dah dihempap2 dengan semua reaserch, reports and proposals.I have been sleeping late nowadays but the problem is that i am very lazy to spend my time reading.Sleep late pun entah apa buat sebenarnya.Outcome masih zero for now.

I actually need to do a lot of reading tapi so far malas nya memang lah sgt sgt merumitkan keadaan. I hafta buckle up or else i will be crying once deadline is coming up.

This is where i always spend most of my time if i do not have class.No kidding.The first time i entered this place, i spent 4 hours inside and i could not believe myself either.JFYI i am never like this.Asked me before during my Dip or Degree time, i don't even know where the library is and it is still alright if it doesn't exist.Well..That was then.Now my life is very sad already. T-T

Been a little stress with my work pile lately.Sebab banyak sgt sampai malas nak buat satu pun.Boleh? Well i know it's not healthy and i shouldn't be too stress about it, but then again i can't help it.Bila fikir i start to freak out.Then came along Mr-Mood-Swing! Sigh..

Well its not that i am not doing anything about it.I have started collecting all my journals to read.Tapi bila nak baca tu belum tahu lagi.Usually i will end up sleeping few minutes after reading the first few pages.I seriously need to overcome this.Even coffee is not helping.My journals has certified the best sleeping pill in the world by me.Gimme a call if you want to try this! I'll deliver one straight to your house.

As for my stress, yes, i am trying to find the best cure to make this stress go away.So far, i only found this.....

Stress reduction kit? How cool is this?

Should try it on someone else first before getting my own stress gone!

Annoyed

2011-10-03T12:34:00.000-07:00

Borrow me space?

2011-10-03T11:47:00.000-07:00

I am now a workplace-crasher!

Right about now...

You could see me at anywhere,studying, doing my thing or completing my job.

Anywhere that could offer me space, free and unlimited printing,then I am on it!

Hahahahahhaha....

Oh yes...it would be better with sufficient stationary supplies as well.

That would make my life much easier and i could make myself stay.

For now, this is good enough! I have found this spot recently and it provide me with all my needs!

Anyone around would like to offer me space?

Additional coffee supply to come together is much better! Wink!

There........

2011-09-29T12:18:00.000-07:00

Ain't it?

Finally..New Toy!

2011-09-29T11:38:00.000-07:00

Urgh! Being busy is one thing but being bury with books and assignment is another thing.I am back being a nerd.It has been 2 night that i stayed up studying.Nie macam lagi parah from before.Usually i am not like this.With all this crazy workloads i need to deal with, the urge of buying a new laptop has become one of the top priority.Well since before pun memang wanted to get one because the old one was back on that Phua Chu Kang years when i bought it.

Considering the number of reports i need to do, so i surrendered and dump my money yesterday for my new toy! Managed to get what i want and happy with it.I am broke! Like flat broke.Pls have mercy.Well its not like i get myself one Macbook pro or something.I wish la kan but no darling, i could not afford that.So i settle down with something that i think can cater me in all the things that i need to do with it.I will be more than happy already.

Whatever but now with this new toy i am motivated to blog even more.Hahaha...not motivated to study more but to blog more.Takpe, nanti bila dah nak deadline, i believe you will see this blogs become half dead sebab masa tu baru i managis siang malam sambil buat kerja. Estimate this to happen around December ok.Nampak sangat memang dah plan!

What i love most about this new toy is the webcam! Oh yes...camwhore much already! Me likey likey the software.It can make me one time look like an alien or it can also make me see fire coming out from my head.Well of course, without the editing also actually soon fire will come out from my head because i am exploding with this research thing but yes....i still can't get over my webcam!

So yes, this is what i am talking about and you do not want to see more of how crazy she is with this thing! I can put this, i can put that,can put butterfly, i can have a crown on my head, i can at one time be at New York, i can one time be at a beach and i can do almost everything with it.I suka ok! This is so fun, more fun than blogging or even studying.Time to leave.

Cheers people!

Getting the Grip

2011-09-29T11:17:00.000-07:00

Still on track.Still the same mess.Or even worst? That cardigan is a must!

Class sejuk macam peti ais pls.Especially my night class.

Day 2 of class.I don't have classes everyday.Class is just 3 days a week but my workloads is crazy.Thought that i am going to have much of free time but seems like it is only a dream.Though i do not have class everyday tapi most days mesti akan occupied juga with research or discussion.And this is all because i need to settle all the crazy assignments, presentation and all those related things.

There is no problem going to class as i like being in class.Oh except for my core subject, Communication Research Methodology.The first day pergi that class balik driving sambil menangis ya.True story! I was having that mental down syndrome that time. If you thought i am being a drama queen? Well you should stop right over there! I do met few people who had taken the subject and memang semua pun menangis dulu then baru start research.Like seriously.So its just like a grip or a starting point.Kiranya nangis tu perlu lah.So lepas dah release semua stress tu, then baru start fikir kerja balik but my case is worst, i feel like crying through out the semester.Boleh?

I have to admit, this is a tough one.It is but i am not saying i can't do it.InsyAllah i can.If others can do it why can't i? Right? Cuma tu lah, i need to dedicate everything for this.So menangis tu jangan risau, memang perlu.Peneman di kala mengejar Master.Allaaa....baru this stage, i just chat with someone just now about Phd and heard that the other person air mata dah kering.Hahaha...so now you know la kan? kan?

So okay, i am gonna be a bit busy this week as i need to collect as much idea as i could so that i will not live in the dark any longer, i am pretty much healing from all that stress time.It is already 2 am now and everyone is asleep but i am still up searching for materials for my research.My progress is very very slow.Sad...i know...

I have tons of things to read.Bukan entertainment magazine, bukan online gossips, bukan novels but all those boring stuff of past years research study.Well the thing is that the most i can read is maximum 2 pages and then i will go ZzzZZzzz...

I don't get it how does all this people live.How do they produce all those thick and perfect research like its just a love letter.Okay, dalam kepala membayangkan research paper yang banyak banyak nie semua datang daripada orang yang muka macam Doctor dalam cerita "Back to the Future" tu.Semua macam rambut dah putih keliling.

So satu research will have around 60 pages and i will need to cover at least 5 research until next week? So how? Sleep or read? SLEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Stepping in as a Student

2011-09-28T02:23:00.000-07:00

Stepping in to IPTA on the first day destroy all my imaginations that i could live my life as joy-ish is i was back in Limkowing.For a while,i forgot the fact that i am stepping in as a Master student in UPM than those time when i was fooling around as degree student in Limkokwing.This two place belongs under one tag which is education place but totaly with different kind of system.

Ok...i am not talking about studying wise sebab kat mana pun you, as a student, you need to study kan? So tolak tepi pasal study. Let me tell you my first experience the day i step in UPM for my registration.

Stepping in to UPM with much of confidence buat macam sebelum nie kan.Pergi SGS (School of Graduate Studies) and go to counter with a big smiley face and said...

Me : Hyeeeee...I nak register!
Kakak Counter : Okay..U dah ambik offer letter?
Me : Ehh..belum..I baca kat portal je.Link tu broken, tak boleh acces dah! (Sad face hoping that kakak will settle semua tu!)

TEETTTTT!! Wrong!

Kakak Counter : Ok..now you nampak tangga tu, go to tingkat satu, admission department and get your offer letter.Then dalam tu ada list of the thing you need to do.

ttsskkk...Off i go..There is no lift.So with that pair of high heels, went to admission.Took my offer letter and it is stated there that i need to do Medical check up, make a photocopy of my ID, bring along my original certificate and bring my matric card photo.

Fine fine.It's still alright.So off i went out from UPM and went to one of the clinic.The Kakak Counter told me that i could do it at any clinic outside UPM.So i choose to go to private clinic in hoping that things will be quicker.I was again TTEEEEETTTT! Wrong.It took me 3 freaking hours to complete on my medical check up.So that day was totally burned! Then since i learned my lesson for that day, so i read through out the list on things that they need and i completed all the things later that day so that i am well prepared to face the Kakak Counter the next morning.

2nd Day!

As early as 8.30am (IMAGINE!) i was already at UPM SGS! I was among the earliest! *Proud Face*

Me : Hyeee....I nak datang submit all the form to complete my registration! (Carrying together all the meds check report and all the i-don't-know-what form all together)
Kakak Counter : Oh? You tak endorse medical check up kat Jabatan Kesihatan UPM?
Me : Jabatan wwaaatttttttttt???????????
Kakak Counter : Oh..Setiap medical check up from outside have to be endorse by our UPM Health centre.

(Don't you think this is silly? Might as well she just tell me this when i asked.If i know i wouldn't have spent my time doing medical check op on private clinic.The idea is to save time but this is just like totally going for medical check up for the 2nd time!)

Me : *Breath in and Out and Smile again politely* Okay Kak, lepas endorse nie apa saya kena buat?
Kakak Counter : Then you will have to go to bursary to clear your registration fees.
Me : And then?
Kakak Counter : Aaaahhh...Then baru boleh register and come back here.
Me : Okay lah...

One step, two step....Turn back....

Me : Kak, Pusat Kesihatan kat mana?
Kakak Counter : Nah ambik map nie.Take this road you go straight, yada yada...OK?
Me : Ok thanks!

Still looking at the map not moving...

Kakak Counter : Cari apa?
Me : Sekarang cari bursary pula...
Kakak Counter : Oh itu peta north campus...Bursary is at South campus..Ambik this peta..Go straight here there yada yada...

And yes...Huda cries all the way completing her registration! Ok fine i exaggerate, no crying but almost! My registration was a mess.I was all alone doing everything.I did not have any tiny idea about UPM or how things work.And for your record, UPM send out my offer letter by 2 WEEKS LATE that class has started and i was asked to catch up for the semester!

That very first time i was informed on my acceptence to UPM! :)

Where my marathon begins! Huda's usual mess as a student! Bear with me readers!

You do not wear Heels to UPM! This kind of wedges is fine.Believe me in this.Next picture will explain why!

Because they will make you go up and down on this kind of route! Oh yes! I managed.This is the way to Pusat Kesihatan.And yes, those who are really sihat can actually sampai to this place.Those who are not might faint middle of the stairs!

Aaaa see see! South campus..You go here....here.....

North campus some more...you go that way pula..there there..

Whoaaa..Registration was more like a marathon to me.Yes! It took me 2 days to finally complete everything and i was on my own all the while! Sad case but i managed! *Chicken Dance* Feels like i have just figured out Da Vinci Code!

See all the numbers? Times i've spent waiting to complete my registration.Kesabaran di uji ke tahap maximum.What is with me and no 23 @ 32? Beautiful coincidence? Aaa...tepi tu gmbr matric card yang tak pretty.Haishh..Pasport picture is always my major failure. =.=

The first day this fool tries to act al dive like she knows everything and she parked at the wrong place.Nasib baik tak kena saman! UPM likes to clamp and saman ok.Dah tak boleh dah buat perangai mcm kat Limkokwing dulu park bersepah2..inikan pula park dekat PARKING TIMBALAN DEKAN.Kau hilang akal?

Lastly, i bring to you! The proud face of that fool who has just murdered her fairy tales happy life and jumps into hectic cruelty book life willingly.Yours truly.Love Love!

More of my days as a student to come! Will be posting more stories.Life isn't as easy as i thought it is! But i am cool though! Still alive and not yet been bury by books!

**And credit to Kakak Counter, you played a big role in this post.Till we meet again** (Raise eyebrow)

Back-To-School-Present

2011-09-27T09:58:00.000-07:00

i am kindda excited that i have gotten my first ever present for back-to-school purpose from Syiera.Oh..My friend all loves me. Pls envy that! Get to meet her yesterday after so long of not seeing each other.Syiera surprised me with one adorable gift!

Tadaaaa! comel kan? I got this red pencil case from her.Luckily i was having a good common sense to compute with the purpose of this gift during that time.If i were not to remember that i am back being a student, i would have ask her did she knock or bang her head on the wall or something because she seems to be confused between a pencil case and a burbery handbag! LOL! Tapi betul lah..since memang dah jadi student now, this is like the best gift ever and i am so touched of her sweet thoughts towards me.

Anyways, i got excited with this that the next day i filled up this case with all my stationary.Only to realize that my stationaries did not fill up even quarter of the space. So later that evening i went stationary shopping and now my Little Miss Marc jacob pensil case is a big fat pencil case!

A few hours after that i had my shower and when i was getting ready to dress up, i bumped into this particular shirt and came to realize that, my pencil case has its own partner!

This pencil case is exactly the same with the Miss Marc Jacobs shirt i had! Kan???? Aaawwhhhh...Double the comel now! To my dearest Syiera, thank you so much for your thoughts.I love you much! This red thing is now always with me during class! And of course with that files, books and papers that i need to carry as well....pppffttttt!~

Bood's Open House

2011-09-25T12:09:00.000-07:00

Still in the mood of Hari Raya? Well i don't...It has been a busy Ramadhan and Syawal for me and i didn't managed to catch a lot with friends during puasa and raya.Most of them do understand so okaylah..not much of an issue.

This is another delayed post by me.This post is actually during the time when i attended for Budi'd open house at Dutamas, Mont Kiara.The first open house i attended during this raya.It was on the 2nd week of raya.Other open house was turn down because i have a lot to do.Mintak maaf banyak banyak to those i did not managed to go.Nanti boleh cover balik with CNY, Christmas or however you want it to be okayh?

So finally lepas free a bit and ada time for open house, Budi's open house was actually the time i get to meet with my friends after so long of not seeing them.Like seriously,they are all starting to think like i have joined secret NASA group of something due to my lack of time to join much of their hang outs and plans.Hahaha..so during that time jumpa, memang teruk juga kena perli but teruk juga kena peluk! Ya ya..i know..you guys miss me that much! ;p

Gio.Me.Ehsan. I miss Ehsan so badly and this was the first ever time i get to meet Gio face to face.Very charming!

Huda and her empty plates! +____+

This picture is a must publish! Mel is very very very pwettyyyyy! Me likey this one!

Pweettyyy Mel again! I think it has been 3 months since i last met her.Did not make it to her open house as well.Sorry Mel! Sobsss...Next time k! ;)

Love is in the air! Enuff said!

This girl can really sing yo! Boods kena bully nyanyi few lagu in a row.A very sporting tuan rumah!

Mama Mia yang di rindui juga.Get to salam raya peluk cium minta maaf with her also.Just for a minute than we both start bitching around together back.Oh yes,much love for our friendship like that! LOL!

Had a good time catching up with all these people.Good food and everything was nice.My life is blessed!

Hello Life!

2011-09-25T11:27:00.000-07:00

i've had a long day today.Oh as usual, days are getting longer now.Been utilizing my 24 hours doing as much task that i could to ensure everyday is a productive day.Today for instant, returned home at almost 1am.Helped around to do something and now is the only time i have to blog myself here.

So lets start.I have blog to you about the time i made a decission and quit my job.I was being emotional blogging about it..=.=" So tanak la sedih sedih dah.It is time to feel the new air around! So let's do some story telling now.

Perhaps there's few of you out there been wondering what is the next step of my life after i quit on my job? Oh ya..few might know but few also might still be wondering where is my life heading to now.So to those who really care to know, below are the answer for your question!

A picture tells a thousand stories kan? So this picture should give you a full answer which life path i am heading now.Like i said, decission has been made and this was part of it.It took me quite long to come to this extend.To eventually give up on what i am doing and be what i am now.Tapi i percaya dalam hidup if you want to be sucessful, you have to be willing to sacrifice something.Jadi bersandarkan that believe, Nur Huda Bt Abdul Halim is now a full time student in Universiti Putra Malaysia and she is in a battle of bringing that Master certeficate down! (cakap macam senang, tapi mungkin tak berapa mudah)

Kalau nak cerita pasal continuing my study, actually this is not the first time i enroll for my Master.This was the 3rd attempt if i am not mistaken.But Alhamdulillah, this time i am taking it seriously.Sebelum nie bila apply then dah dapat, i will just let go the offer.Mungkin tak cukup motivation untuk grab the oppurtunity.Mungkin juga sebab selalu fikir diri sendiri tak cukup mampu nak study for Master.Cuma this time around, alhamdulillah, dah terbuka hati and support from people around me sangat strong and overwhelming.Than you so much to those who are there during the critical time of deciding this! Now, i am really looking forward to be a student back.Enthusiasm this time = maximum!

Back then.................

When i applied for UPM, i was also enquiring for other options.Mom is giving me a chance of furthering outside from Malaysia since they said that i could complete my Master in 1 year to 1.5 years in oversea.Unlike Malaysia, it will require 2 years of my life to get that Master eventhough i am doing it full time. So when she asked me to go and ask around about it, i was a bit reluctant to choose to study outside due to some reasons.

Until one day i returned home and she gave me a piece of newspaper cutting about University of Adelaide.She asked me to take a look at it if i am interested.So that very moment i knew that she was a bit serious of proposing me to go to Australia.Entah macam mana, sebenarnya day by day, i was bit by bit influenced by it and start to have that wants of going to Australia for my Master.Benda tak best jadi macam best pula.

Well of course i keep on trying to be negative about it.Keep trying to tell her of how much different the cost to study there compared to here.Not to mentioned the cost of living yada yada yada.Susah nak explain, the feeling of torn apart that time.Mom is actually one of the reason also why i wanted to continue my Master but at the same time i was really confused with what i want.Between wants and needs.Untuk just go and leave everything here, at one point i really think that would be very selfish for me to do so.Don't ask me why, i do not know to explain on this.Tapi nie lah yang i rasa.

Day by day, i need to come to one decission.I keep delaying my promise to go to IDP (IDP Malaysia place students better across universities in Australia, USA, and UK) to enquire about Australian university and mom keep on making a fuss out of it.So i did take few options under my consideration termasuklah for twinning programme.Lepas lama lama dah tak boleh delay things, i just thought that, i would still have to go to EDU so i can get to know any informative things i need to know.

On the day itself when i was ready to go IDP, this offer letter came in.Oh yes! Setelah sekian lama.This letter came in on that very day.Kebetulan yg tepat pada masanya? How's that sound? So upon receiving this letter, i thought i still wanted to proceed with IDP but entah.Maybe rezeki untuk sambung belajar dekat sini.I keep asking myself back, on what decission did i stand for upon applying for UPM before.So lepas fikir panjangggggggggg without having others to influence me, i finally accepted the offer.It was again, another heavy decission.

During the time i was contemplating about this, i was at a mess.Totaly.I don't talk much with people and i did not share what i had on mind.It was a tough one between letting the chance of studying abroad again or to remain to be in Malaysia.Around 3 days of thinking,at the end...it came down to this, rezeki sendiri and this is my rezeki Alhamdulillah.My full commitment for 2 years time insyAllah.

I completed my registration last week and i am a week late for my class now.need to catch up soon.I am now back to my student life and this is exactly the things that i love to do.Ye kot! Well i like going to class and do assignment if this could support my statement there.Hahaha...

This commitment and responsibility is for myself and for those around who always hope i would do this! I hope that i will not let any of you down.Will try my best to fulfill walaupun otak sebenarnya macam dah half dysfunctional.Need to get back on the grip and work on it baby! Pray for me and may this time student life be even better than those times i've had! InsyAllah!

Huda is now a full-time-nerdy-student on the go but at the same time i can still rock you socks! ;p

That very 14 of September

2011-09-23T02:54:00.000-07:00

14 of September happened to be one of the day that i will always remember.Yes it was almost two weeks ago since my last day of working on the company i have served for more than 3 years.Deciding to leave is not as easy as leaving.Sebenarnya i never thought it would be that hard for me to leave that place.

Well yeah..bila fikir fikir balik, work place is the place u spent almost half of ur day time from Monday to Friday so all the faces in the office are all the faces you see everyday.The bond somehow grew not only for working relation but more to family.I somehow get to be very comfortable with all the people around there and leaving all of the was a very sad thing.

Last day was a very relaxing day.Relaxing at first but time seems to pass so fast on that day.And by noon, i started to have this mixed up feelings that i could not know what to define.Sedih ke, happy ke, pun tatau.After a while, i get myself out from the office.I just could not be there sebab memang tak faham perasaan sendiri.So i stayed outside for few hours, bumped into few person who said goodbye to me and it all started giving me more of the heavy hearted feelings that i have to go.

I was so busy doing something elso and i get to packed my stuff quite late on that day.My farewell emails hits a massive reply from all the people around.So touched! Thanks to those who care.Trust me, all of the people in the office will be dearly miss by me.Working with all of you was one of the bes thing so far and i am sorry i have to leave.

Early in the morning i was still busy with data transfer and clearing process instead of packing up!

halfway..tsk...clean up clean up! Never knew i have created such a trash treasure out of this 3 years!

Just one box that i carried out from there! Ok sampai hari nie pun this box remain untouched! LOL

Ok back to my story..Back then thanks also to those who arranged for my farewell dinner and thanks to those who actually spare the time attending it.Just like one of us said, that was slightly the most happy farewell dinner one could attend.Oh yes...we were busy talking, laughing and gossiping about stuff! I am seriously going to miss all this people badly!

Sorry i do not have any of the dinner picture except for this one.A must publish! My good friend Eric! He made it for the dinner.So sweet to see how happy he is that i have left the company as well.hahaha!

And not to forget! Thanks to all of the people in the office who gave this to me as farewell gift.OMG! korang sweet sgt seriously i will die soon because of diebetic! I love it.So sekarang i can put all the maniature perfume in different handbags so i can have perfume at all time.Best best!

TQ to those yang print card tu.Ada gambar i lagi.i like! And those words inside the card there, it is priceless.Thank you from the bottom of my heart.All you people are the best people to work with and my 3 years was beautiful because having you people around me!

Finally.....before i end this post.................

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Taadddaaa...Meet Mr Alex! My succescor and the new TDK Superstar! LOL!

Though i left him with a massive workloads, but i do pray he will get things done easily.Such a fine guy and easy to make friend with.So bye Eric i now have Alex as my good friend.I think he'll be fine.He have a lot of guidance from the people i have introduced him to.And if he remembered the tips from one of us "Pray more, work less" I think he will survive! hahaha.... Its time for me to leave in peace now.

A good memory of 02 June 2008 ~ 14 September 2011

Can never thank you enough to those i have met and get to know along the way!

A decission made...

2011-09-23T01:52:00.000-07:00

Sekarang kan,I have been doing a lot of things settling my current life commitment.So dalam nak selesaikan semua benda banyak yang buat I kena menunggu lama.So that is when I decided that while waiting,I will start doing my blogs draft in my BB.at least I am not wasting much of my time just wait..

So as few of you know,I have officially give up my working world 2 weeks ago.So yes,no more corporate life after 3 years process of learning and utilizing what I learned during diploma and degree life.Now,I am back free and zero commitment from any affliations!

Quiting my job wasn't an easy decission.It took me quite sometimes to come to a firm decission which I do not want to regret.Alhamdulillah,I think I have made the right choice and I am at peace now.Somehow,everything falls into places perfectly bit by bit and I am really thankfull for that.Syukur Alhamdulillah!

Lepas fikir deep down and asking for oppinions from people around,Alhamdulillah,rasanya its about time and I need to do this.for myself and for the people that I owe this for.I am ready to lost now for a future good outcome.InsyAllah!

So by then a resignation letter was tendered, and a month after that,I am officially free from the company.Which what I am now..

Breaking away from that 3 years usual routine feels good and refreshing.its true what few of my friends told me that I really need to take the time off and do some changes in life.

It has been 2 weeks now and each day is a new day.There was never a day yet over this 2 weeks pass that I felt I was jobless.I was busy running here and there getting things done,for myself or for other people.In whichever way I could help..

So if u asked me what now? Alrite..I am ready to disclose.More post coming in to you on my life changes.Offer came in,and after 3 days of thinking,I accepted the offer..

So InsyAllah,new life,new commitment..Will be blogging about this soon readers!

#random 210911

2011-09-21T04:43:00.000-07:00

I live by everyday wondering where will this take me....

Bangsar South

2011-09-21T04:22:00.000-07:00

I had a long day again today.As usual, most of my days are from morning till night now...

So this morning, my first destionation i went to is Bangsar.But not the "Bangar Village" bangsar but it's Bangsar South.Punya la wondering where is this place.Thought it was somewhere upwards daripada all the bangsar food place. Give a call to the office i need to head and find out to be that Bangsar South is located on Pantai Hillpark area.

Been to Pantai hillpark area few times tapi never knew there was Bangsar South there.Came to learn that this Bangsar South building is a combination more than 10 towers that combined few companies in one area. As i entered the places, everything looks nice and cozy.Very relaxing and i like the place.The design of each tower is very modern and i needed to walk from that parking area to Tower 6. Blerghhhh..... +___+

They have like this one place like a street that have all the cafe's and combined with carefour together.Cool gila pegi jalan tempat kerja and boleh pegi shoping kat carefour kat bawah.Ada Gloria Jeans Cafe also.Me likey walaupun takde Starbucks! I want to work here please.Can any of the company hire me as tea lady? I promise to make good tea for the bosses!

Sorry i did not have much picture of this place.Was busy walking around like a jakun looking here and there in the middle of the hot sun! Yes.Huda.Walking.Alone.Hot.Sun.Sweat.You got that right.i almost give up my heels half way to the tower.But anyhow, i just think this place looks cool.Was making my way to Tower 6... =.=

Sorry tak rotate last picture.Tak perasan pula.So that was the office i went to and settle few things earlier.Receptionist dia cantik pls and i like the office.Very cool and urban.Coolio! Ok..Yang pakai Touch & Go and Smartag tu, jangan pandai pakai je but tak tau pun mana this thing come from.So nie la tempat dia ok!

So this was only the beginning of my day but i am just sharing the part that i have conqured and discovered Bangsar South.Ok,lame.Slap me now.Anyway, baru perasan juga somewhere around here ada lalu Binjai 8.Ha? Binjai 8 tu apa? Apartment laa...Tempat wedding reception Nurul Syuhada tu...Ha? Nurul Syuhada tu siapa pula? Ok now you come here lemme slap you!

Do you actually....

2011-09-20T06:10:00.000-07:00

Escape tu best.Tapi depends on sejauh mana kita nak escape!

Can i just skip the whole and start fresh? Would that mean i cheat? Malas nak refresh and malas nak create the story outline.I have tons of just rants in my mind now.I could talk for things that actually have no points at all....

macam macam benda came across my mind.but how would i put it all into places? To try figure out things can mostly damage my brain, i swear!

Do you hate the fact that when you are so free, you have a lot to do, a lot to think about and to figure out? Or do you hate it more when you sometimes actually do not know what to figure out?

And i actually hate it when i do not know what is the point i am trying to tell here...

Cinta Sempurna

2011-09-20T06:02:00.001-07:00

http://youtu.be/12QoE5O51eE

i was just browsing through this youtube link and i really feel in need of posting this on my blogs.Maybe not to share with others but to be able to remicnise one day if i were to scroll back on all this date and needed to know on what it is all about....

Depression by the rainbow

2011-09-11T22:25:00.000-07:00

This feeling is unusual.This feeling is hard to ease.

Time to bring myself back to reality.

There so much more things need to be done.

And yes, need to be blogging more often as well.

Watch out for my life changes progress.

Won't promise you its gonna be fun, be its gonna be out from norm.

Life is about taking chances.
Only the chances that is worth the risk.

It time to see what more could life offer me.

To be different from what i am.
Rebel? Nooooo......Seeking risk that is worth

I am currently waiting for a spark to make me smile again.Soon!

I miss what i had.Not HAD! Have.I still have it.

I miss writing but lemme bounce myself back.
Once i get the grip, i will be on it again.

I talk much, because i am not in my good level of mood.
Nothing serious.Just my rant.

take care everyone.xoxo.

My Craving of Banana Leaf Rice

2011-09-08T18:13:00.000-07:00

One of my craving wishlist was fulfill to perfection when i finally get to go to Bangsar to eat my banana leaf rice.Ohyeh i did! Like i said, i don't really like to eat rice but when i feel like it, then the craving will become madness.

Went there to get for lunch and i was accompanied by my sister in law.Since its lunch time obviously the crowd is more than usual and we need to que to get a table to eat.But lucky us that time because my sis in law is 7 months pregnant so she was asked to go inside for the table.Priority for pregnant lady! Aawwhhh...lucky us! I should bring my sis in law more often to get this cutting que tactics! LOL!

They started out by putting this nice clean banana leaf as your plate.

And this is the basic things they will give you.So the rest is for you to add up by your own.So since we both are so tamak, we had extra chicken,eggs and fish.

And this was what happen after few minutes! Tadaaaaa....Gosh! I was so full i can't even barely think and walk anymore.I rarely eat rice, and one of the reason is because i hate the feelings i get after finish eating, i will be so full and my brain will go dumb that i could not think of anything. Once a while is fine.So this rice is probably the one i had after few months, well i am not sure.

In conclusion, ok memang kenyang gila and i am so happy o have crossed out this wishlist to perfection! It was a good one! Worth the travelling for food!

Raya & Ketupat

2011-09-06T02:33:00.000-07:00

One the thing that really makes this raya different from any other Raya before is really because of Ketupat. Seems like this raya everyone is making a big deal out of this ketupat.This year maybe family effort untuk bagi feel raya meriah lebih sikit because every year the family member is adding up.

Start daripada puasa lagi, bila ada free time, all of them will sit down together and start doing this ketupat.Segala macam jenis ketupat of course.

Part of the hasil! Cantik kan?

Haaa see? Kelas mengayam di malam hari lepas berbuka puasa! OK walaupun ramai kat situ, belum tentu semua tu tau menganyam.Yang menyibuk je lebih.Sebenarnya out of all the person dalam nie yang paling legend anyam kentupat is the guy on the left hand side.Ohyeh! Betul..My brother in law sebenarnya paling expert!

So this is a different story.This is back in Penang. Tok dengan Ohsem nya seperti biasa penuh skill dah bersahaja buat semua nie sorang sorang. This is like the usual food for hari raya at Penang.Ok..Ketupat daun palas i dunno how to buat ok.

Mama is taking the chance to learn to do ketupat daun palas.Different from the one yang di kerjakan at our house.

Ketupat daun palas back in Penang.See, here or there, this raya is all about ketupat je.Some prepared it sweet but we put beans in it!

And this is hasil usaha from our collaboration at home.Unfortunately, i didn't even taste one of em.Sedap sangat that it could not last even for a day.

Selamat Hari Raya

2011-09-06T02:17:00.000-07:00

Macam dah lama sangat kan tak update anything on this blog.Tu lah dia been so busy during this Ramadhan and Syawal.As busy as ever occupying the time i had.

Since there is too many things that i will need to update, lemme start by wishing all of you Selamat Hari Raya and Maaf Zahir Batin. Sorry for all my wrong doings and if ever i have said anything that might offended you in any ways.I hope all of you people have had a great time just like i did last whole week.

And do not forget, raya sebulan and everyone is still in Raya mood and open house schedule is still a lot more to be fullfill.Eat healthy people! Jangan makan banyak sgt pls! Tak elok.Keep slim! Have a great Syawal!

Mine! Hahaha..Jangan main mercun pls! BAHAYA!